I’m saying just some friendly advice. 25 years ago, when I walked into the AA rooms, I was upset and angry at myself because I was wondering how I got there.
I knew it was my behavior and my actions, and not being able to control my alcohol consumption, I didn't want to believe it, but it was true.
I spent some time in AA rooms and embedded the skills and tools to stay strong throughout my life. But I wasn't ready to change.
The number one rule in recovery is no relationships, I mean, you've got to find out who you are and build your life all over again before you can love somebody else, and that was my downfall.
I started understanding more and more.
The last time I became sober was 13 years ago. I walked into detox, never looking back, and stayed away from relationships. I’m still single because I can't handle jealousy, and people want you down, because they are mad they can't use and abuse you.
I’ve been through more than you can ever know, but we all have to strive to keep going forward, which is amazing. I’ll be graduating with my bachelor's this spring semester. When I share my story, I want to be recognized after everything I’ve been through.
I’m just saying to you all: learn the skills and tools, and stay away from toxic people and places. If nobody’s for you and cannot support you, you do not need to be around them.
I also want to stress that idle time is not good because our addiction comes to us in our darkest hours; so keep yourself busy, get a full-time job, and keep your meetings up, but stay active in your recovery.
If you are recovering from alcohol and you have a few days of sobriety, I believe it would be best if you admit yourself into detox because alcohol withdrawal needs to be medically monitored.
Goodnight.