I’m really struggling. I don’t want to stop drinking even though I know I have a problem. No one is here for me the way that I need them to be. Everybody is so busy, and they just assume I’m ok. It’s just me and my daughter. I’m not in a relationship and I don’t want to be in a relationship. I’m scared. I’m afraid I’m going to loose this battle. My faith isn’t good because I don’t know what to believe in. I wish I had someone here with me 24/7.
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Do you attend any meetings?
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Latasha, the fact that you’re saying you’re scared tells me you care. And that matters more than you realize.
Learning to sit with yourself.. with the fear, the loneliness, the quiet.. is one of the hardest parts of recovery. Drinking numbs it. Sobriety asks us to feel it. That doesn’t mean you’re weak… it means you’re healing.
You don’t have to have perfect faith or all the answers right now. Sometimes faith just looks like taking the next right step. Sometimes it’s just choosing not to drink today.
You’re not alone in this even if it feels that way. So many of us have sat in that exact space.. scared, unsure, wanting someone there 24/7. The strength you’re looking for outside of you is already inside of you. It just needs practice.
One day. One hour if you have to. Sit with yourself. Breathe. You and your daughter are worth the fight. 
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You're not alone... He is with you... You're right you can't do it alone.. know you're higher power is ALWAYS present... ask for strength and understanding!!
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You can and WILL do it!!!
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Prayers
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Latasha, you wrote you don’t want to stop drinking. In my experience there are many people that NEED to stop drinking but the key ingredient is they must WANT to stop drinking.
The only person I’ve ever known to be with me 24/7 is me. So I had to become the person I can rely on. When I drank I was fractured. Meaning my addict ego didn’t want me to be whole & happy, just drunk, lost and hopeless.
My real self wants me strong, independent and helpful to others.
I hope this makes sense to you.
I’m here if you want to talk or have any questions
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Sounds like you need to reach out to your higher power and pray for clarity and strength. Give your burdens to your higher power and believe and trust 
Hope this helps, reach out to me if you need to talk.
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Believe in yourself and Allah you will get through this