I’m so alone, I have 2 disobedient toddlers, 1 extremely traditional husband who thinks a wife should serve the husband like a king, and clean the house like a perfect maid, no friend, a boss who gives way too little money, and I’m always angry person, even towards my 2 babies. I have no one and no where to let off my steam, so I started to drink and now I can’t stop, I need help..
You’ve got a lot going on. I can’t say that my situation was the same. But, my biggest trigger was due to the relational stress and anxiety in my previous relationship. One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned over the past year (and forgive me if you’ve already heard this,) is that we can’t control other people, but we can control what we do in response to other people. Finding a therapist and recovery Coach has helped me a lot. My faith has as well. Others have suggested finding AA meetings and sponsors. Know we all support your desire to find help. Let us all know how it goes.
I am so sorry! This is not a healthy way to live. I used to have a husband like that. I finally left him a long time ago. If you husband doesn't want to change, then you may need to leave and focus on your children. I am sorry again you are going through this. Reach out and chat with me anytime. Virtual hugs for you!