I’m so depressed and things never seem get better. I just want to use but then I remember the feeling and pain is does after doing it. 
I don’t know what to do anymore I look at myself and see sadness in my eyes. Everytime I look in the mirror. The cravings today are terrible.
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Hey Sierra I know the feeling. The PAWS (post acute withdrawal symptoms) can be brutal on the mind. It had my emotions all over the board. They upped my anxiety/depression meds because of it. Maybe talk to your doctor about it. Smartrecovery.org has some good tools for cravings. I use the DEADS (delay, escape, accept, dispute, substitute) tool a lot, as well as cost benefit analysis, and play the tape (remind yourself or play the tape of all the negatives and consequences from using again as well as all the positives of not using). Stay positive, stay strong!!!!!
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Thank you I’m going go visit the website. And yes my depression is major right now it’s like on going thoughts and continuous sadness.
I sure hope you get feeling better soon Sierra. I've recently realized that it's good to want things to get better, but it"s Paramount to be able to accept how things are right now because that is where we always start from. Thoughts?
Thank you , I’m going start letting things just flow together. I get overwhelmed alot with life and try rush things. But I’m going stay focused on staying clean so I can see how good life can be and how it’ll get better as I’m getting better.
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We're all in this together.
Please keep going to your meetings. Please keep talking out loud to someone or a sponsor or counselor. Your depression is both part of your addiction and part of living.
You did great sharing here.
But please share use the people in your program.
Meetings are made for sharing And the individuals are there for you too.
You might not see it currently but I promise if you trust the program and get involved in recovery you will realize you're looking in the mirror and smiling.
It's a beautiful experience I still remember the first time I did...
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Hi Nate, I have a question, just finished up outpatient intensive program and looking for a home group for meetings/support. Does smartrecovery.org also have in-person meetings (looking for online support n in person meetings) thanks !
I was exactly like you and joined outpatient group that met daily after work ! Bit by bit, the therapist and group members helped me realize the reasons (unresolved inner conflicts) I drank. Then one day, I woke up feeling hopeful - our brains need to heal fr the substance abuse and although I still have moments of sadness n feelings of overwhelm, I have learned ways to view things thru a different lense! Best advice I can give you is do not isolate yourself and reach out to others. You are not alone in the path of sobriety
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Get to a meeting
They have in person ones but it depends on your location. I don’t have any around me and I know a lot of them went to zoom during covid. You can search the meetings on the website and filter it down to location and in person
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Thank u for the info!
Just stay sober no matter wat it took me 2 years of sober to start feeling normal..wait for the miracle 
..it's really worth it
Amen it will be and congrats
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Yeah 
This will pass! You will get through this! All of the people are giving great advice for sure. When I got clean, it was a black hole of depression and horror. I went to 3 meetings a day, morning noonish & night. Finally a speaker got me laughing! It was weird, I couldn’t stop laughing. I’m sure I looked crazy🤪 and I was crazy. But that was so healing. After that I knew I was going to be ok.
Search your memories for loving moments, funny moments and dwell on only the good.