Yes I am
Thank you and the thought that my story could help someone that just made my heart very happy. It's a hard road but it is so very worth it I know not everyday is going to be great so we just have to remind ourselves of the great things that God is bringing back into our lives when times seem hard and I'm learning that sharing how I feel and saying it out loud does not mean I'm failing I just have to remind myself of that so stay strong and keep pushing through and soon you will see how truly great sobriety is!
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You are a champion for just exposing your self like you just did. That takes courage that most people don’t understand. I hate to say it but you have a long road ahead but by the way your going your going to be victorious in every thing your trying to do. God bless you and keep fighting for whatever it is your trying to do. Your day is coming hang tight
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Kristie, smart reaching out and sharing! you’re not alone. You’re going to get through this! Yeah of course you’re worn down! Meth daily for 8 years and then sober is a tremendous challenge mentally, spiritually and physically! The great news is, is you never have to go through this again🎉. Life will get better and easier if you stay clean and do the work. Are you working on the 12 steps with a sponsor?
This makes a HUGE difference.
I’m here if you want to talk or have questions.
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I am starting in smart recovery zoom meetings tonight I also do the legacy aftercare program through Minnesota adult and teen challenge and I am also in mental health counseling I do not have a sponsor yet and that's where I went wrong with my first recovery I wasn't actually in recovery I was just sober when I was sober for 12 years before my relapse in 2019 so this time I'm trying to do it all right thank you for reaching out
Don’t worry or be down on yourself. Trying to get your son back is a slow and tedious process. I have many friends, women and men both, who have had their kids taken away. After they got sober, it was about a year before they got supervised visitation and 2-2 1/2 years before they got full custody. Children’s court keeps a close eye on you and gives you many hoops to jump through, and yes, it’s frustrating as f**k, but it’s to ensure the safety of the children. My advice, take this time to focus on yourself so you can be the best Mom you can be when that time comes, because it will come. You do your part and don’t waste energy trying to fight the courts, it’s better to work with them.
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Yes I agree when they took baby Liam the day after he was born in September they were going for expedited termination due to the termination of my 3 kids in 2019 so they did not even want to work with me so I knew everything they would expect me to do if they were not terminating my rights so I started fighting it like my rights were not being terminated I went to treatment did my mental health did everything that they would expect me to do without them asking me to do it and because of all that and the help of my dad and stepmom hiring me a real lawyer and turning my life around in such a short amount of time without their help they have decided not to terminate and now we are working towards reunification my lawyer had said in the 20 plus years that she has been doing this work she has never seen somebody turn their life around in such a short amount of time the way I have without the help or guidance of anyone else. Thank you for your comment and reaching out I greatly appreciate it everyone on this app I can't believe how much it truly helps
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Look Kristie I’m not going to sugar coat anything 6 months for me was absolutely incredible but as I researched more I realized that it wasn’t that much time looking at the big picture. The brain takes 14-24 months to recover from the damage done, so yeah you’re suppose to feel unsure, scared, and confused that means you’re on the right track, here’s what’s happening your body doesn’t recognize this new state of being ( sober) so it’s try to tell your brain to return to what’s normal ( your old identity) this your fight at the moment and it’s challenging I know but it’s suppose to be you have to get comfortable with be uncomfortable and your imagination is your strongest weapon knowing what you’re doing it for is the mental part but imagining what it’s going to feel like when you hold your baby and truly feel it is more powerful because your emotions direct your thoughts, so when it feels like the walls are closing in close your eyes and imagine and watch what happens.
YOU GOT THIS
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Kristie it sounds like you know what you want and what to do! That's growth. Congrats on your clean time! Pat ur self on your back
Keep moving forward
God bless and good luck
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Kristie I am so proud of you for sharing your feelings and asking for support. There are complete strangers cheering you on and many more walking the same walk you are on. Stay focused on today, don't look back on the old you focus on who you are becoming and stay in the present. Today is a gift, enjoy it, be grateful you woke up. You can do this!
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Kristie, you’re absolutely welcome 
and thank you for being part of my recovery. Doing service and unconditional acts of kindness is our medicine. Especially in the sober community.
I’m always here if you want to talk or have any questions.
I sponsor over the phone too.
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Keep going, Liam will one day understand in his own way. God is walking with you.
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What I have learned is that the addiction is in the life struggle. Our DOC is just a symptom. Don't just treat the symptoms. Treat the problem. Get a sponsor and work the steps. Kinda sounds like you need to 4th step everything you just shared. Thanks for sharing. Keep coming back it works when you work it and you're worth it.
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Your baby is going to be so proud of you and grateful that he has such a great mama who CHOSE HIM instead of the addiction! You have no idea how strong you are! It will be worth it in the end girl, stay strong just remember that little face as the goal and light at the end of the rough tunnel!
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Im here wit cha two fight is way better than one lol
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