Hey everyone… I don’t usually open up like this, but I really need some support right now.
I’m 6 months sober from meth after 8 years of daily use. I’ve fought hard for every single day of that. I’ve changed my life in ways I never thought I could, and I’m still showing up and doing the work.
But lately… I’m struggling more than I want to admit.
I’m exhausted all the time, even though I sleep through the night. No energy, no motivation… just drained. And it’s not just physical—it’s like I’m tired in my soul.
On top of that, everything with trying to get my son Liam home has been weighing on me heavy. He was taken the day after he was born in September, and ever since then I’ve been doing everything I’m supposed to do. Staying sober. Showing up. Doing the work. Trying to prove that I’m a good mom.
And I’m not going to stop fighting for him. Ever.
But if I’m being real… some days it feels like no matter how hard I try, it’s never enough. Things keep getting pushed out, extended… and it starts to feel like they’re just waiting for me to mess up.
And that messes with my head more than I want it to.
I know I’m doing the right thing. I know staying sober is the right thing. But right now I feel overwhelmed, worn down, and honestly a little scared.
I don’t want to go backwards. I don’t want to lose everything I’ve worked so hard for. I just need a little support, or to hear from someone who’s been through this and made it through the other side.
I’m still here. I’m still fighting. I’m just really tired right now.
If you’ve been where I am… or even if you haven’t, please don’t scroll past this. I could really use some encouragement right now. 
Thanks for sharing Kristie! It does sound like life is getting very heavy right now. First, I’ve got congratulate you on your sobriety. This is amazing!! Next, there is hope for you and your son…if you continue to stay sober. Yes the “system” is slow and tedious, but it’s not against you. Accept that these are the consequences of your addiction, and learn to do what you can do (which is to stay clean and sober, and do your best each day). The hard part is trusting that the universe will take care of you and your son. In my experience, if we do our part, the rest will fall into place. Maybe not on our timeline, but on the universe’s timeline. That is what we have to work on…letting go of the control and having faith in the powers that be. I suggest attending recovery meetings. You will find many others just like you, and see so many miracles. Hope this helps