Hey everyone… I don’t usually open up like this, but I really need some support right now.
I’m 6 months sober from meth after 8 years of daily use. I’ve fought hard for every single day of that. I’ve changed my life in ways I never thought I could, and I’m still showing up and doing the work.
But lately… I’m struggling more than I want to admit.
I’m exhausted all the time, even though I sleep through the night. No energy, no motivation… just drained. And it’s not just physical—it’s like I’m tired in my soul.
On top of that, everything with trying to get my son Liam home has been weighing on me heavy. He was taken the day after he was born in September, and ever since then I’ve been doing everything I’m supposed to do. Staying sober. Showing up. Doing the work. Trying to prove that I’m a good mom.
And I’m not going to stop fighting for him. Ever.
But if I’m being real… some days it feels like no matter how hard I try, it’s never enough. Things keep getting pushed out, extended… and it starts to feel like they’re just waiting for me to mess up.
And that messes with my head more than I want it to.
I know I’m doing the right thing. I know staying sober is the right thing. But right now I feel overwhelmed, worn down, and honestly a little scared.
I don’t want to go backwards. I don’t want to lose everything I’ve worked so hard for. I just need a little support, or to hear from someone who’s been through this and made it through the other side.
I’m still here. I’m still fighting. I’m just really tired right now.
If you’ve been where I am… or even if you haven’t, please don’t scroll past this. I could really use some encouragement right now. 
Thanks for sharing Kristie! It does sound like life is getting very heavy right now. First, I’ve got congratulate you on your sobriety. This is amazing!! Next, there is hope for you and your son…if you continue to stay sober. Yes the “system” is slow and tedious, but it’s not against you. Accept that these are the consequences of your addiction, and learn to do what you can do (which is to stay clean and sober, and do your best each day). The hard part is trusting that the universe will take care of you and your son. In my experience, if we do our part, the rest will fall into place. Maybe not on our timeline, but on the universe’s timeline. That is what we have to work on…letting go of the control and having faith in the powers that be. I suggest attending recovery meetings. You will find many others just like you, and see so many miracles. Hope this helps
What has gotten me over hurdles and I have had many and attempting to get over a huge assssss one at the moment. It is not to view it as a fight or to just accept it either but attempt if one can to make peace with it. Meaning to breathe and do tiny things in action and self care even in setbacks or what may be viewed as setbacks. To make peace with self and let the rest go and be open to how it may turn out hopefully better than we thought it would.
It will get better. Keep doing the right thing
Don't forget to call on the Light to fix a thing you can't. You're only as alone as you want to be.
Get all the support you can. Hopefully you have a sober support network in your area. If you're not already, get plugged in, and pray! 
Hi Kristie,
This is Blake. You’re on the right path and you’re doing the right thing. That is why it is so hard right now.
I think you’re a good Mom. A good Mom improves on herself for her own good and her children. You’re doing that. For example, you’ve reached out here for support. Outstanding!
A lot of my drinking was related to depression. Once I addressed the depression and anxiety it became easier for me to not let emotions dominate me. I realized that my lifestyle was leaving me malnourished and that fueled my dependency. Putting the right foods, vitamins, and minerals in me helped me to be more mentally and emotionally stable.
So far it’s been working out pretty well. Too well! I’m gaining weight. 
Finding our own recipe for sobriety is like shopping. Often we can’t get the entire outfit from the same place at the same time. As we keep “shopping” for our sobriety we find the outfit that fits us best. Keep seeking, like you are doing, and you will find.
Proud of you,
Blake
Everything that everyone else said and...give yourself some grace. You have been doing the work and everything you can to right your ship. Keep doing that but also remember your body is still healing from the 8 years of abuse and you are also under a lot of stress, which drains your energy too. Rest, be patient, let yourself heal, keep doing good things and things you enjoy to relieve some stress. Hang in there, it does get better and these struggles are worth the outcome in the end.
Thank you all so much… seriously. I’ve read every single comment more than once, and I can’t even explain how much it meant to me in a moment where I felt so low and worn down. 
Some days this all feels so heavy… like no matter how hard I’m trying, it’s still not enough. But reading your words reminded me that I’m not alone in this fight, even when my mind tries to tell me I am.
I am still here. I am still fighting. I am still choosing this life—safe & sober—no matter how hard it gets.
I’m not giving up. Not on myself, and definitely not on my son.
Thank you for reminding me why I keep going. 
I’m praying for you and your son, may you be reunited soon!!!
Good Morning, I know we say stay strong, it's worth the effort, but maybe ( it was hard for me too ) find someone a professional to help with the mind and body cravings and craziness. Seeking a professional to help you with everything is not a bad thing part of what we go through is admitting that we need help with our addiction. I started being honest with my Doctor first and it opened up a lot of helpful kind people.
Keep fighting for you first and your son next. Your addiction wants you down so it has a chance to beat you up once again, don’t let it. Go to a meeting or zoom one but stay active in program. Look up the 5-4-3-2-1 technique, it really gets your mind back on track when you’re struggling. Also know that because you are doing good things, the beast will mess with you because he does not want you well, this tells me you are doing a good job with your recovery. Congrats, take the wins and be proud of yourself. Much love
Hi Kristie, Don't give up keep going believe in yourself.
Thank you for your it's honesty . One thing that I have learned his perception is everything. The way that you see it isn't necessarily the way that it is. So you shared that things were being pushed out and extended.You feel like they're just waiting for a minute for them to wait for you to mess up. How about think of it this way, instead of that, maybe the reason it's extended or it's getting pushed out is so that you have more time to get right. It's just not time yet, doesn't mean you're doing anything wrong.It's just not time. Everything will happen the way it's supposed to when it's supposed to give yourself a little grace. We are our own worst critics, ease up on yourself.
So very true thank you so much for that!
Thank you all again for your kind words and encouragement I am in mental health counseling and I have also graduated Minnesota adult and teen challenge high intensity outpatient treatment and am now in there after care program once a week. And maybe this sounds dumb but sometimes it's hard for me to share with my support network that I'm struggling with certain things and it's not that I'm going to use but I feel like if I admit to still struggling with certain things like if I say it out loud then it becomes real and that I will be disappointing those that are so proud of how far I have came in such a short time. If any of that makes since
𝐻𝑖 𝐾𝑟𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑒, 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑚𝑦 𝑔𝑖𝑟𝑙𝑠 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑛 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑚𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑢𝑏𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑎𝑏𝑢𝑠𝑒. 𝑇ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑔𝑜 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑑𝑜 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝐷𝐶𝑌𝐹 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑜 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑎𝑠𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑡𝑜. 𝐼 𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑔𝑖𝑟𝑙𝑠 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑎 𝑦𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑎𝑦 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚. 𝑈𝑛𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑢𝑛𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑦, 𝐼 𝑡𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑦 𝑠𝑜𝑏𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑜𝑤𝑛. 𝑁𝑜 𝑚𝑒𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝑜𝑟 𝑎𝑠𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑓𝑜𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑝 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑦 𝑎𝑑𝑑𝑖𝑐𝑡/𝑎𝑙𝑐𝑜ℎ𝑜𝑙𝑖𝑐 𝑏𝑒ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑜𝑟 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑑. 𝐼 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑎 𝑙𝑜𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑦. 𝐴𝑙𝑐𝑜ℎ𝑜𝑙 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑟𝑢𝑔𝑠 𝑘𝑒𝑝𝑡 𝑝𝑜𝑝𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑜𝑢𝑡. 𝐼'𝑙𝑙 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 5 𝑦𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠 𝑠𝑜𝑏𝑒𝑟 𝑖𝑛 𝐽𝑢𝑙𝑦. 𝐼'𝑚 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑦. 𝐼𝑡'𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑦. 𝐹𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑒 𝑖𝑡'𝑠 𝑔𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠, 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑝, 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑒 𝑖𝑡'𝑠 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑎𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑖𝑛 𝐺𝑜𝑑. 𝑃𝑟𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑔𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑐ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑐ℎ. 𝑀𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑠 𝑤𝑒𝑙𝑙. 𝐾𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑑𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔. 𝐼𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑎𝑙𝑘 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒, 𝑠𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑎 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑟𝑒𝑞𝑢𝑒𝑠𝑡. 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠!!! 
You’re a Teen Challenge graduate?
Great!!!
Me too!!
Wow , be proud 
of yourself and give yourself some grace and kindness , from what you just shared you are overcoming a strong battle of addiction and have come so far , congratulations to you , I'm not there yet but your share is a inspiration
I have found that keeping myself busy and really searching for the core of the reasons that I feel any type of way helps me. I also make a decision every day to be positive no matter what. Even if the only positive thing I do is wake up. I do thought stopping regularly as well as meditate. I sit with my higher power and really lean there a lot. I can be a friend if you want. Sober support is a massive thing. I will keep you in my prayers.