I’m still repulsed by alcohol but lately I’ve been having dreams where I know I’m sober but I take a few sips of a drink anyway then the next thing I know I’m black out drunk doing the crazy stuff I used to and driving too and then trying to justify myself to every one what I did was no big deal it’s okay while feeling extremely guilty and embarrassed, and they are so vivid and real it’s scary. Like last night In my dream I drove drunk and almost wrecked several times and even ran over a few things then the next morning I pretended I didn’t know what happened and blamed it on others and felt so guilty and when everyone started asking questions Tricked them all to get in a old rv bus to take a photo then set it on fire and jumped away before it exploded with hearing someone scream f you your going down for this and casually ran away to a neighbors to pretend I didn’t know what happened and seek help that the Rv randomly caught fire and exploded even tho I did it to keep anyone from knowing I drank and drove and ran over things…. It felt sooo real too! Anyone else do this??
That’s pretty wild! I’ve had a few intense dreams where I’ve relapsed and felt so much shame. It takes a few minutes upon awakening to realize it was just a dream. They are not fun at all! I hear others having similar experiences, so I suppose it’s fairly common and nothing to worry about. I could give you my dream analysis, but that’d just scare you more lol. What a can do though, is congratulate you on over 2 months of sobriety!!! That’s pretty darn awesome! You must be the only sober person in Gainesville 
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