My sobriety date is: 02/02/2019… & I can honestly say that after my 18 year old daughter becoming a Heroin Addict at 16 1/2 years old I don’t want to use nor am I thinking about it!! But; it’s Christmas Day @nd I just really need help to what I’m about to vent to you, My fellow Recovering Addicts…. My family on my dad’s side is so negative and toxic but I love my mother with all my heart and soul and she’s being mentally drained and tortured because first off she’s 77 years old and raising my 4- year old ADHD Mentally Ill Granddaughter because honestly since becoming sober from my Monster Meth i Mentally haven’t been the same & daily I have my struggles with my past addiction and mistakes I’ve done and how it spiraled out of control and hurt so many people I love in life including my children… but my dad is very mentally unstable and mentally torturing my poor mom to a bad point and she’s afraid of leaving her home she is half owner of so she puts up with this daily torturing and I don’t know what I can or should do for my mother?? Because I’m mentally drained and being having Mental illness and super strong emotional issues and horrible depression; I feel so hopelessly sad and bothered with myself for letting my past addiction and choices ruin me to were I feel helpless to help myself, Let alone My poor mom and until my mother is happy I feel as if I’m never going to be happy and therapy, doctors, mental health all healthcare were I live is unfortunately Horrible and the police do Nothing to help my poor mom and granddaughter and resources are just seeming to NOT BE THERE ANYMORE!!?? What is anybody/ even everyone is welcomed to please give me insight on the whole issue and it doesn’t matter Good or Bluntly Honest Truth is welcomed… Thank You all & Merry Christmas 2- You all Bye!!!!
I think you would benefit from checking out ACA. Adult children of alcoholics and chaotic families. It changed my life
Congratulations. Keep it up.
Dang girl, sounds like you have a lot on your mind! Could you or your daughter help with raising granddaughter? Maybe getting out of the house and taking grand baby to the store, gym, park, ymca to get some energy out. Maybe even a child friendly meeting! I know getting out of the house and getting some fresh air always helps me. 
Sorry, it cut my post off…to me it seems like your grandma is a grown woman and made up her mind, protect that little baby! Make sure she has the best possible environment to grow up and be healthy!
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You have almost 4 yrs Kimberly. Did you go through the 12 steps in NA with a sponsor?
I hope so. There's a story in AA that asks, what do you get when you get a horse thief sober? You get a sober horse thief. The point is that if all we are is sober and we really haven't dealt with the If causes and conditions then we really haven't changed anything inside of ourselves.
If you have gone through the 12 steps then you should be mentally fit by now to be able to start taking some responsibility and take it off of your mother. You don't have to do it all at once but maybe start by doing little things here and there. If there's any way at all possible you really should have your own place because it doesn't sound like you need to be around your father's side of the family.
And try not to beat yourself up too much. It sounds to me like your problems started long before you started doing meth. Sometimes people are off to a bad start by no fault of their own.
If you have your own place you won't have to deal with any of that stuff between your mother and father. Part of recovery is being able to take life under life's terms without using.