I’m struggling today. I’ve been sober for ten months. This month has been a battle. The cravings are so intense that I know if I had the money right now I’d use. I hate this illness, Every Day I fight but for some reason this month has been brutal for me. I’m feeling anxious and depressed again after months of emotional stability. I’m scared that I’m going to relapse. Can anyone relate?
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Hang in there Rosey can you reach out to others in your circle ask how they are see if you can help another before long you’ll have forgotten all about those cravings. Always reach out to your HP. It’s the last thing I think of myself. KTF🙏
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You can make it Rosey. Get to some meetings and keep reaching out.
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Rosy, I don’t think you are having cravings at 10 months. I believe this is the obsession of the mind that’s causing you to want to drink or use. Cravings are a phenomenon that occurs in the body after we take that first drink.
What I described is two of three parts of our disease 
. The third part is the spiritual malady.
Did you get a sponsor yet?
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Being of service in some way will remove ur thoughts of urself ! It will give u purpose and will make you feel good and get u connected !
Hi Rosey. My first sponsor taught me to ask my higher power to help relieve me of the obsession. It helped me. Just a thought. Try and hang in there.
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That intense of a feeling requires action Rosey! My suggestion would be working with another alcoholic, in person. It’s a feeling, and it will pass, but it’s easier to weather that storm in supportive company.
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Try to attend a na meeting don’t waste your 10 months clean go stay with family for support be honest tell them your scared and having cravings and don’t wanna relapse but scared u will fight the fight a lot is mental u can do it u have to 
want this u got this !!!!
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I can relate, in the past this was exactly me. What's changed now is I found a different solution. In the past all I knew to do when I felt restless, irritable, and discontented was to drink bc that's the only solution I had. I needed that awakening of the spiritual type to change the way I thought. The only way I found to do this was working the steps with a sponsor. Once I did, I found a relationship with a higher power, mix that with the psychic change, and I have never found a good enough reason to drink since.
Yes I’m struggling with this right now. I’ve been reaching out to people and it seems like there’s nothing specific anyone can really say to make me feel better. But it helps to be able to vent and not feel alone. Be gentle with yourself don’t beat yourself up for wanting relief from your emotions. You’re not alone and you’re strong but it’s okay to not be okay. I journal and pouring my emotions onto paper so my mind is less flooded helps. But I’m still learning myself how to handle this. Hang in there 
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Don’t forget we are human and life isn’t perfect. Things come in waves but you can learn how to surf. I know that’s cheesy as heck but I can relate to that feeling of hate and why now. I’m trying to ride it out and I know it’s not easy. Sending love 