Me and the wife are not talking she has me blocked on everything and i miss my kids I really wanted to take them out to dinner or just spend time with them
Hang in there Brian, it gets better if you can stay the course. You’re not alone. The biggest heartache for me always involved my kids as well. I know how hard that can be. Stay strong 
Thank you I’m listening to music but I think I need to change what I listen to cuz I’m getting more depressed
Hold on to your sanity, Brian.
What's the next right step?
I’m headed to a meeting here in a bit and praying on it but I still struggle with trying to control situations I’m scared I’m going to lose my family I grabbed a bottle the other day and called a buddy he helped me to get rid of it
It comes in waves
We settle in to the comfort of sobriety, as if we've found a nice comfy chair next to a warming fire and a good dog at our feet
We've all been, though I'd hazard a guess that most of us have.
Everything will be fine ..don't think much
Just keep trying and stay sober no matter what it’ll eventually show her u mean what u say. U got this 🩷
Sorry about that 
I had to change what I listen to as well. It was all depressing and sad suicidal tendencies….
Stay sober, it gets better. I went through this too.
Stay strong, Brian. I don't even get a phone call on Father's Day(this will be 4 years). I couldn't stop drinking while I was with her and still let her trigger me until my last drink. There is no pain like that of which evolves your children. Don't hesitate to reach out man it's rough now, but it WILL GET BETTER.
Thank you all for your kind words today is my birthday and I’m really going to miss my daughters today but I hit a meeting last night and shared and prayed and read out of the big book
Listen to Tom MacDonald let me go
And more
Stay strong, Brian. I don't even get a phone call on Father's Day(this will be 4 years). I couldn't stop drinking while I was with her and still let her trigger me until my last drink. There is no pain like that of which involves your children. Don't hesitate to reach out man it's rough now, but it WILL GET BETTER.
Just learning this app saw a typo and saw there was an edit option. I didn't realize it would repost the whole darn thing, lol and now I know you can't cus either lol
Stop trying to control shït. You can't. It's impossible. And if you do manage to control shït you will alienate yourself, nobody will wanna be around you. Calm the fück down, give your wife some space. Breathe. Relax. Go to as many meetings as you can. Stay focused on not making the situation worse. Please do more than "pray".
Really Sorry to hear this Brian. Better days are ahead and continue to lean on us to uplift you.
This 100%. This happened to me with the shows I was watching. I switched from dark dramas to comedies and it helped. I was a year sober when my wife left. I prayed (simple prayers) and leaned on the AA community for support. I talked about my situation in meetings and it really help. 75% of my people have been divorced at least once. I am about away from our divorce being finalized and I am ok with the hand that was dealt to me. I am still not use to my kids not being home all of the time. But it get better and I can say I am doing great overall. Keep your head held high and put one foot in front of the other. I hate the phrase but it just takes time.
I was in a similar situation. Remember it takes a lot for your family to fall out of love with you. It takes time, staying sober, and being there whenever possible without pushing your way back in. Good things will happen.