I’m such a fu*k up.. I always seem to feel like I got this sobriety thing figured out and then bam I relapse , disgusted with myself
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It’s not weird when get drink or use. It’s weird when we stay sober.
We never “got this.” What we have is a daily reprieve dependent on our spiritual condition. Even at 700 something days sober, I’m fully aware that if I stray too far from AA, my brain will convince me I’m not an addict or an alcoholic and I’ll go and get loaded. I did that for years. The only thing that works for me is doing absolutely everything that AA suggests.
I hope you find what I’ve found. Love ya brother. Keep your head up and keep trudging. It’s beautiful on the other side.
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Easy does it brother. I get it. It is rough out here. But look at this year? More sober days than last year for you? I bet. It may not be linear. But you can do this and you are a better version of yourself when you’re sober. You have a lot to offer the world. Keep coming back and your saying what we sometimes think in our head. It’s ok to feel upset about that but let’s not let it drive the recovery bus. Let it sit in the back.
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I don't think we ever figure it out but take action daily to do everything we can to cling desperately to sobriety and a new way. When I crave, which is rarer now I remember that horrific feeling of relapsing and the next day just wanting to die
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It is a jerny for all of us. Non of us get it right the first or even the 15th time. You can do this.
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I get it.... but it isnt about falling down, it's about getting back up, you can do this, no matter how many times it takes, keep your head up......
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A long time ago I made a list: Column 1. What’s great about getting drunk. Column 2. What’s great about being sober. Column 1 - 1. Column 2 - 18. Whenever I get triggered, I look at “The List”. 18 reasons to stay sober works for me!!!!
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You’re not a f**k up Jay, you’re a human doing you’re best. I appreciate your vulnerability and you have another chance 🫶🏽
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Been there sister. UGGG it’s though. Not worth the side effects for sure.
I'm sorry to hear this Jay. I hope you feel better soon, and stay sober. We're all in this together, and we can recover.
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Great idea am going to make that list
Trust me! It works!!!!
Don't beat yourself up, I quit drinking a thousand times before I finally received the gift of true desperation and stopped (876 days this time but only today matters) it really is about one day at a time and you're worst day sober is better than your best day drunk or high.
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