i’m thinking of going to detox and then rehab for a month but i’m terrified and can’t stop
crying even thinking about it. my clinic would be happy and my
doctor and my fiancé and my mom…
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Gotta say it’s an amazing idea u gotta do what u gotta do in order to put ur mental health and sobriety first , can’t take care of anyone until u take care of u , just got out of a rehab and honestly it was awesome
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Not too long ago I honestly couldn’t have imagined going away for a whole month. I thought I’d lose everything and the world would fall apart…job, car, home, relationship, etc.? What would be left? Super scary stuff. Had me stressed…
The TRUTH for me turned out to be this: that it went by in the blink of an eye, I actually wanted to stay longer, and in a funny/sad way ABSOLUTELY nothing had any problem carrying on without me. It was all an illusion of inflated importance.
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One last note: treatment can be a blessing and a good start to sobriety. But it isn’t a magic pill. You still have to put in work and your disease will be waiting for you when you get out. I had to learn the hard way that it’s just information if you don’t use it. Live it. Frankly I found a lot of truth in the joke: “Treatment is that place you go pay thousands of dollars to find out meetings are free.”
Diving into the AA program did more for me than anything else and it’s right there for the taking. When you’re ready.
Spent 30 days at affinity care in desert hot springs, ca. and I live in New York that’s how bad I wanted help.. I would’ve never in million years thought that I woukd have been there
I chose this route to get off benzos. It was the more drastic step of the options I had. Looking back on the decision I think I did the right thing. Being in an inpatient setting it put me in a controlled environment to really work on my underlying issues so I didn't get out and backslide when I finished my program. It wasn't the most fun I've ever had but I did meet some great people along the way. I'd off cycled myself from the meds periodically on my own but each time I started them again it got worse. Being in there and away from my life had it's pros and cons. I like having control but this time I needed to give up that control to meet my goals. More than a year later I'm doing pretty well. Made a bunch of money and more importantly I think I am a happier person. Doing my 30 days was a huge positive for me. There are plenty of options but if you can do an inpatient program I recommend it. The biggest gift I received was that I got my hope back.
You said it would make everyone happy, but will it make YOU happy? Maybe trust those around uou having your best interests at heart. Go get healthy and live a better life! Doesn't matter what road you take, juat keep climbing and get there. If this is your best chance for a good "climb", take it.
FFS just go to rehab already.
Going to detox/rehab was the BEST decision I’ve ever made…and I am 1 year sober today because of it! My kids, my parents, my siblings, my job are all still in my life because I got help! I thought I’d lose everything by going, but it’s quite the opposite…I’ve gained so much more by completely surrendering control. 
Don’t be terrified it will be the best thing you do because they will give you withdraw meds and watch you and it’s the best support. Do it before it’s too late. Good luck. 
Luna H, cry all you need. sometimes our sttength and our emoti9ns can be at odds, yey allowing strength to prevail is what sets the path for oir emotions to realign with our values and less with our varnal natiure. Do the right thing. For your self, so that you may be better equipped for your family. i will keep you and yours in prayer. You D0 got this!
A friend of mine is going through the same exact situation right now and I’ll give you the very same advice I’ve given her,…. Make the call or take that first step (understandably yes it may feel difficult) and just go. Give yourself a healthier way of life and just go! Much support and love to you, and know this… most things that may seem or feel difficult are worth doing, this is definitely one of those things!
You got my well wishes I can say that when I made my mind up I was also wondering what would my life be like without the uses and it turns out all the money I spent per week I get a refund to do other things
And the weed and liquor I was taking in were keeping me depressed cause that's what I found out
So the moment I blew I felt like never did before and it was then I said I wanna live cause this might kill me
And they told me that what I took was a upper when I blew and they got me stable list help me count my days aloud me to graduate the program in treatment and set up after care meetings for me to go to after treatment totally out of pocket now fa me cause it did its job and got me sober & clean and gave me a life worth living one day at a time from which I started in 2002' the year I enter and made a little noise around the fellowship but stayed with the program 20+ years
And I'm grateful to bless you with one member story name kevin.b chosen from area west mid city Chicago
And I say had I not came through I would probably would of miss all the things I enjoyed that recovery had to offer plus getting my health back and letting my family nem see to this day I is still party drugs free and I am living the life that I wanna be in chilling out from earlier in life I had to be the one in the lime light and everybody know my name with cars and drugs and cases pending to recovery a chance to relax relate and retreat "
Thanks fa reading me ramble '
Yep it changed my life cause I stay to the program and the good people of the fellowship of recovery '
Stop “thinking” of doing it. Just do it. You’ve been struggling for a long time on this app. You need to learn sober tools and get plugged into recovery. This is life or death. Time to choose.
If you go to rehab, you'll lose your job.
If you don't go to rehab, you'll lose your job.
If you go to rehab you'll get tools to change for the better.
If you don't go to rehab, you're stuck where you are.
A lot of people don't have the option of rehab. It costs $$. And this can all be done without it.
Family, fiancee, they will be there when you get out. If not, they are not here now.
And rehab doesn't guarantee anything either.
Rehab will show you the path, you will need to do the work.
It's better over here, come on over.
Also Detox is coming, might as well get some help with that.