I’m working on my day 3 and hopefully getting the vivitrol shot tomorrow. The sleep comes with insane nightmares that feel almost like hallucinating. My anxiety gets so so bad. I know it’s from detoxing the alcohol out of my system and repairing the damage. Then maybe my meds will work better. It’s almost crippling the way I dwell in my own head. Thank God for my fiancé. Over our years of knowing eachother he’s pulled me from the dark so many times. I keep reminding myself IT WILL GET EASIER AMD BETTER. Everyone says it. I’ve been drinking so many years. I’m just getting through the beginning. I won’t feel like this forever. The future is bright and beautiful and full of love and he reminds me everyday. Just breathe… and pray.
