In 2004 I went into Minnesota Teen Challenge to help me with a 10 year addiction to methamphetamine. Well, actually I was addicted to anything that helped me to not feel! You see, my dad killed himself when I was 13 and I had just been kicked out of my mom’s place and only lived with my dad for 9 months. When I called my mom to tell her my dad died her response was “ what are you going to do now?” That began my battle with addiction. When I was in Teen Challenge I found out I was pregnant with my son. Prior to this he only sobriety I had ever had was 9 months when I was pregnant with my daughter in 1999 (my reasons for seeking treatment). 60 days later I graduated treatment, moved out to f the cities, started college (I dropped out of school in 8th grade and was emancipated). I worked 3 jobs and raised 2 kids and finished nursing school, with the help of a bestie. I maintained 15 years of sobriety from everything but still drank on occasion. I grew complacent with my faith and sobriety practices and
Back pain, working overtime as a hospice nurse and maintaining my family and home, had me depleted and gave a foothold to the enemy. In 2021 I began a 4 year battle/relapse! I must have had over 300 “Day 1’s” I never quit quitting though. My heart became hardened to THE ONE who saves. I felt guilt and shame for turning my back on Jesus Christ after all He had done for me! I lost everything but by the Grace of God, my home and my youngest child! So grateful for that!! But in losing everything, I came to the end of me and only then did God show up to rescue me! It didn’t come easy! I had become the addict that I previously judged, and said I’d never be like! Boy was I humbled! I’ll never judge another again! 2 weeks now and I believe I have finally been delivered from this addiction! God is my strength, my hope, my EVERYTHING!!! Today I go before the nursing board requesting they allow me to to get back to nursing, with monitoring by Health Professionals Services Program, for the next 3 years with daily color wheel UA’s. I have to get a job in the next week in order to maintain my mortgage and it sure would be nice to be able to be a nurse! Prayers appreciated for mercy from the board of nursing to allow my stayed suspension to continue. Thank you! In Jesus’ name I pray, amen!
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