I messed up again,,,I just give up I am nothing but a total failure., my addiction counselor will not be happy with me on Tuesday., why would a 73 year old woman savatauge every single moment she makes progress?
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Be gentle with yourself. Get back up.
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I messed up yesterday too. I’m in the same headspace of feeling sad and so disappointed in myself.
You can do it. Keep going, each day is a new day.
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Don't say you always screw up. That's not even possible. Think about all times you've succeeded and use that as energy to do it again. Listen to Keni: be gentle with yourself.
You are loved, sister.
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And you, I'm proud of you, encouraging Kathy when you're at day two. You are great at this and you can succeed too. You're a rockstar; you got this. 
Get back up and keep fighting. All is not lost until you’ve given up. We do recover.
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Kathy,
Seems to me that you have a lot to be grateful for. I suggest you call your sponsor and get to an A.A. meeting. Do 90 meetings in 90 days. But only is you have a desire to stop drinking.
What Matt said.
You may need more accountability with a sponsor rather than waiting on appts with a counselor? Do you have one you can call at any hour? Dust yourself off and go look in the mirror and say I love you! You are worth it 
The great obsession with every abnormal drinker is that somehow, someway, and someday we are going to control and enjoy our drinking. Even though I had completely destroyed my life - jobless for over 2 years, homeless, penniless, but wose than all of that I was hopeless - I would still pick up a drink. It was my solution for everything! Bad day - drink good day - drink, celebrating, mourning, worked hard - drink... This disease that I have is just that, a disease. I had to learn that I am mentally and physically different. I had to learn that once I put alcohol into my body, I have a physiological response and my body demands MORE!! On top of that, I had a mental obsession with drinking - it was always on my mind, and I couldn't wait to get that next drink in me. It was that sense of ease and comfort that I craved, and I was willing to destroy everything and everyone around me to get it. I hit my bottom when I stopped digging, then dove into AA head first! I remember lying to my counselor and sobriety coach for months bc I slipped up and was ashamed. I had to learn that I needed to be completely honest with them, myself, and others before I would ever be able to get well.
SLIP- Sobriety Losing It's Priority, and I have to make sobriety my priority each and every day. Without it, everything else goes to pieces. I just checked, and I have been sober for 694 days, which I accomplished one day at a time. All I have to do is not drink between now and the time I go to bed. I did this through prayer, meditation, and working the 12 steps. I went through the Big Book with a man who has taken other men through the steps, and now I do the same for other men. AA is a design for living which changed and saved my life! Praying for you! 
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Forgive yourself. We have an allergic reaction to drugs/alcohol. when we pick up, we can’t control it anymore than we can control sneezing. For straighten out that crown, and get back on the pathway to recovery - admitting that you can’t pick up, because the allergic reaction of more will start all over again. Forgive but repent, by not doing it again.
Thank all of you!
Today is another chance to start over , I have to keep trying. If I don’t try I will certainly die!
Take life one moment at a time give yourself progress for the time you made and start again at your earliest convenience keeping it simply one day at a time when you can handle it at that pace
I hope your ok ?
Take care till you can get with some one you can work with and that understands your situation and found a way to. Help you cause that person got more time been there hopefully and would share freely how they recovered '
Don’t give up love
Just read a story on fb from a newscaster who interviewed a 35 old man who died of cirrhosis of the liver , he was from the state I live in.,There were pictures of the sick man.,A eye opener for sure. I lost a Nephew from this 2 days after his 34th birthday. ALCOHOL KILLS!