I messed up completely I'm disappointed and mad at myself and I don't know how to turn things around, or correct my wrongs, there's a lot I can't amend for. All I know is now that I've messed up the devil is intervening all around me. I am 6 months clean, but I don't know how long it's gonna last.
Father God I NEED you in the midst and i hope you can forgive my wrongs help correct me.
Keep praying 
as God to give you the strength to overcome. Remember, the devil doesn’t like God.
Amend for the things you can control, and pray for forgiveness from the things you can’t control. God always forgives for the heart of those truly repentant. Don’t focus on the number of days, focus on the process of turning yourself around and investing in the little things that will strengthen your foundation & add to your support of a sober lifestyle.