I dont know if anyone will see this or care but ive been struggling lately i am 28yrs old battling a cocaine addiction i dont really know who to talk to or where to go so i try to fight it myself and i can go days without doing it but then that demon starts screaming in my head and i end up giving in ive been extremely suicidal lately but id never take my own life injust dontnknownwhat to do i feel like a failure
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Have you checked out any NA meetings or local recovery places in your area. Depending on where you live, there’s bound to be a meeting or some kind of recovery resource. People ARE out there and they do care…sometimes it hard for us to see them. You are not alone.
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Just know it's going to be hard starting it always is most things you really want are hard to get it just keep it going you can do it
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Failure is a part of life don’t let failure ruin your journey it’s okay don’t be afraid of it just don’t make it a excuse to do it again I struggle with that myself take it day by day the urge is strong but you can be stronger than the pressure it’s all very stressful makes you feel like you’re not ready or you’re not even trying that’s not the truth just remember that to fail means that you’re trying so keep pushing forward you deserve the best you it takes self love and patience everyone has a rough day rough week and even rough months it’s not the end just a lesson you can learn from
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Hey brother. We hear and care. Appreciate you sharing and be honest about your problem. Most of us can relate. You talked about fighting it by yourself. I just left a meeting, and the topic was step 1. The speaker said something I really liked…that he wasn’t completely powerless…that he had some power…but that his power wasn’t sufficient to fight this disease. The idea of the 12 step program is to find the sufficient power (greater than just yourself) to fight the demons. For him the fellowship gave him more power. Going to meetings gave him more power. Getting a sponsor gave him more power. Working the steps gave him more power. You get where I’m going bro. There are other programs that work too. I’m just not as familiar with them. Regardless, find yourself a program, bc as u said, you alone can’t fight this
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Do you see how many people reached out to you already? That’s because we’ve all suffered the same thing and are struggling as well. Part of helping yourself comes from helping others in the same situation. Go online right now and join an NA meeting. It will get you over the hump!
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There’s an online meeting group called “in the rooms” please check it out 
Thank you for sharing I'll suggest you start going to CA cpcaine anonymous meetings. Make connections with like minded people reach out when you have cravings and we are always here to talk. Cocaine was one of my substance of choice it's hard but not impossible to quit. You can do it don't give up because you are worth it.
You are not alone....ever. I may be on the other end of a keyboard, but I can be a shoulder to lean on. You may think it cliche but I can be a warrior to pray for you. You're not alone. So, much Id like to say but I don't know the religious rules here...Seek friend...seek hard and this chain will break
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You are not alone. Thank you for sharing and reaching out. There are so many people here that will do what they can to help. Finding a local N.A. meeting is something I can help if you would like. Feel free to privately message me.
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Hey there my friend I understand what you're going through but the first thing is don't pick up! Get to your self and say a prayer for what ever higher power that you believe in and ask for the desire to use to be taken from you if there's a treatment center where you are please try to get to one and ask for help it works!!!
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Reaching out shows so much courage. Please, don’t try and take on this battle alone. That gives you too much time in your mind. The battle can be in the mind most of the time. Letting it out and following a few solid suggestions can make the difference.
Struggling doesn’t mean you’re failing, most of the time it means you’re growing. In order to cross over to the next level we face struggles. Hang in there BREAK THROUGH will come. Lean into this community. Keep pushing through!
My daughter is 28 too and living with me getting her life back together. Rarely people can fight a serious coke addiction by themselves and stay clean. You'll have to get out of your comfort zone and find a network of support which could look like inpatient or outpatient treatment, reaching out to family or friends for help, NA meetings, finding a sponsor... Suicidal thoughts are serious! Things only get better only if we work on them
Go to the nearest detox center grab a in a book in the Bible and go to work
If it were me, and it was 17yrs ago, I would pick up the phone and call 1-800-662-HELP. Go to an AA meeting. Call someone you know in AA.
Meetings and try to get into rehab if accessible for you. Best decision I ever made to come off stimulants and alcohol. NA and AA have meetings online 24/7 and throughout your community. Na.org and/or aa.org
It’s worth the effort I promise you.
Dude the fact you recognize that demon gives you power over it and now you know exactly what to fight. Fight that fucker. Get out of your head. I struggle with mine as well. Daily. I got the W today. And I’m prepared for the thoughts of being a failure tomorrow. Get out of there. Find a hobby.
You are not a failure! Unfortunately that's just part of addiction. We all have been there and we all know how it feels. I'm still struggling on a daily basis but it really helps me to go to meetings and even if I don't share I always walk away in a better frame of mind because I learn new coping skills just by listening to those who have been doing this longer than myself. Even if you can't attend meetings in person there's meetings you can do by zoom. Not everything that works for some will work for all but knowing that I'm not alone in how I feel and how my brain works does me a lot of good. I don't feel right if I don't attend meetings. I try to make a meeting every day, but that's what seems to help me and keeps me on track. On the days that I am really struggling with wanting to relapse I have to seek out on of my fellow recovering addicts because I know that I won't be judged by them and they always have something that helps me change my thinking on those days. I hope that this will help in some way! Please keep your head up and take it one day, minute, or even second at a time!
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Darion, you are not alone. I tried fighting my addiction alone for too long. Finally I surrendered and got help. I went to detox and gave myself a chance to break the cycle. Then I got real serious about my sobriety and went to in person meetings, got a sponsor, did the steps and made sober friends.
I’m here if you want to talk.
Look for support go to local mental health to talk to somebody....meetings
It's the new you. You got this to get more support and understand addiction.....open your eyes in the morning, and you feel shame and guilt. Turn that first feeling to love for yourself remember that's and old feeling.
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