My mom said that my dad is more important to her than her kids and it really upset me. It triggered me hard. Ive been crying for hours and i really have the urge to spiral. I already relapsed bc I dont have a single person to talk to/call.
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I’m so sorry Aleah. What a hurtful thing to say! You definitely have a right to be triggered and feel any and all feelings. I’m glad you reached out here. Your mom’s feelings and words do not diminish your value as a person. You are obviously strong (because it takes strength to be here!) and have enough self love to know you deserve to be sober, loved, and cared for. This community knows that too! Please take a few deep breaths and focus on what you deserve - love, support, and sobriety - and know we are all here cheering you on!
It's hard bc I don't feel like I have support right now. Nobody is answering my calls 
Do you go to any type of support groups like AA or NA meetings? Do you have a sponsor? It's good to build and have a supportive network of people to reach out to. At the end of the day we are all here for you. I can relate to that feeling. I'm 33 years old and for years my mama chose my daddy over me even though she say she didn't she did. When me and my daddy would argue and fight she would kick me out. He even kicked me and my then few month old baby out in the cold one time. We're all here for you:heart:
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Yes those are some of the hardest times. I don’t know if it will help you, but I have the everything AA app. It gives a running update of the next virtual meeting you can attend. You can just listen in. It may help
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Try going to a meeting speaking what's on your mind letting stuff out it definitely helps for me
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I haven't been able to find any in person meeting near me yet. I definitely need a sponsor
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I am sorry to hear that you are going thru this. REMEMBER YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I am so proud and happy that you reached out on here to share what you are going thru. Ima keep you in my prayers. As for finding an in person meeting, keep looking and JUST show up to one. In the in-between time, there are always 24/7 Zoom meetings, sisters to stay on track, and keep your mind in a healthy, loving, positive space. 
I see that you like music writing and art. Try using that to express yourself and get grounded in what you love
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I'd love to see your art. We artists think a lot. We find beauty in everything and it's hard to explain us sometimes.
This community is here for you!
Don't take it personal parents are doing the best they can with kids that are in addiction
She said it about both of her kids not just me, the only one who's an addict
I’m sorry your heart hurts, my father said the same about my mother over me & my brother so I totally get it. Try to shift your perspective and remember she is sick in her own way. Pray for her and pray for your higher powers will for you in this situation. Release to pain to your higher power. I’m sending positive vibes and prayers your way.
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They don’t sound like good parents if they let you like all that nasty stuff in your bio.
I’m so sorry that you had to hear that. Sometimes people say things that are hurtful. The best thing that you could do is love yourself right now, give yourself a big hug and know that you have our support.🫂
My mother said the same thing to me when I was in high school. As much as I loved her, I never understood why.
It’s not your burden to carry that I do know. You must forgive them to release the pain. Be proud of yourself and your sobriety. You deserve to feel god
Try the Al Anon app….you can go to virtual meetings and find one you like/vibe with!! There are a ton of different online resources….start searching! And stay strong! You’ve got this!!!