Well 02/24/24 at 5am I had to call 911 for myself because I was oding. Multiple cops surround my apartment door and one of the cops takes all of my 
and other stuff I had. I seen a stretcher out in the hallway they tell me to go sit on that then everyone starts asking me hella questions this and that. Well I didnāt OD on I actually OD on my meds because I was on video chat with someone and he said that I looked strung out and that I was tweaking out ( even though I wasnāt in my opinion) so he told me to take 6 of my Topomax and I did. One pill of my Topomax is 50mg I took 6 so thatās 300mg in total. Well now itās 02/25/24 Iām at my adopted dads house because when I came home from the hospital yesterday all I wanted was to use again as soon as I got home I started hitting people up to see if I could get anything. I realized at that point I canāt be alone I canāt be by myself I need to be around people. Well Iām at my adopted dadās house Iām around people and I still want to use but the urge isnāt as bad but itās there. I honestly donāt know what to do anymore Iām literally going insane and the withdrawal and the comedown is terrible!!! Itās so much worse than the others Iāve went through!
Get to rehab as soon as you can.
Just give your body the time it needs to rest and drink a lot of water this will pass you got this
If the urge is that strong you most likely need to go to treatment. You are so young, please ask your family to help you find somewhere. Invest now in yourself, you are worth it
Call a treatment facility ASAP
You might want to consider a detox and rehab. I know it sounds scary but it is for the best
Treatment, good, go.
Treatment, good, go.
Treatment, good, go.
Get to a rehab asap
Hang in there, this part is rough but the other side of things will be worth it. Glad you have your family and a change of setting, maybe also try to separate yourself from anyone who was also using? Agree with the above that a treatment center might be extremely helpful in breaking those ties.
The first good decision was not being alone now try a rehab center if you call your insurance company they may recommend one. Stay strong the initial urge to use will get better only ti time away from you DOC. We are here for you no matter what you decide.
I agree with Taylor, rehab seems like your best bet. I went to rehab at 41 for the 1st and only time ever. I wouldn't change it for the world. I do wish I had gone sooner. My bro in law does of an OD while I was awaiting my admission date. This was a big wake up as if I hadn't seen numerous OD's beforehand d but this one hit home. Right next door in fact.
I hope you do get to a rehab. It is good that you are around those who make the urges less but you need to be surrounded by those that are trained to deal with the issues you face. Crystal can be devastating. Moreso to the families involved than the addict themselves. I have seen it. I have lived it. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and yours. If ever you need a friend, feel free to reach out. I sent u a friend request.
Keep your head up
Pray on it
I was a mess by the time I was 14 I was mixing oxys dope topamax clonipin cocaine and alcohol along with extasy. I wanted to die. If a POS like me can get sober you can too. Took me 20 years but I did! 12 years sober 22 days
Get into a rehab and DITCH that āFRIENDā who TF would tell you to take 6 of anything along with why you listened but felt you were not strung out says a lot about the level of denial you still hold but you are saying you want help so you have to take that step
You need to get to rehab and surround yourself with positive people
That person IS NOT your friend they could have 
you