I need someone to please inbox me who knows about meth because I am feeling really different right now and have a question about it in case I need to go to the ER because it has never looked this way before and I have never felt this way and I am starting to get really worried and don’t know where else to turn to ask for the help I am needing
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Go to the er.
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How are you doing now Crystal? Please give us an update.
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Hey I’m sorry, i had my notifications turned off and have been asleep so I am just now seeing this, I am still exhausted from no sleep the night before and with all of the Benadryl and other meds I’m still so tired so I am going to get in a little bit more sleep and I will post an update when I wake up and thank you for posting on here to check on me, I really do appreciate it and I am fine and I believe that I needed this to happen because I have been wanting to stop this drug that I refer to as the devil for the longest but I always would go back to it because I have severe depression from a traumatic brain injury from a car wreck that I had back in 2006 and I used this drug not to make myself not depressed anymore because it actually made me feel miserable while doing it, but it made me “forget” about what was making me depressed because so much has happened in the past year that my life has been turned upside down, but the problem was that after stopping the drug, when the depression kicks in from the withdrawals, it starts all over again to stop that depression so it’s been like this vicious cycle that I have been wanting to break and this scared me more than anything ever has because you don’t know because it’s not on here but about 7 hours after I posted this, things got worse and i didn’t put this in the post but I was so hesitant about going to the ER because I actually worked at our hospitals ER as a unit clerk in the nurses station for almost two years up until about two months ago and I don’t work there anymore because of the chain of events that have happened this year and how bad it has affected me and the depression but not because of drugs and I really didn’t want to go through that having to see my old coworkers and how the would react because I have been an addict off and on for years and I know how some ppl can be about that issue and i wasn’t up for the talk that I would have heard from them but anyways, I am glad it happened in a way because yesterday afternoon when things did not get any better I was terrified and in tears and went to a friend and was trying to see if they thought that i should go to the ER and some things happened after that and I am ok but i was so scared that I don’t ever want to have to go through that again or risk that happening again so I believe that this will be that extra push that I needed to finally put it down and go through the withdrawals and deal with them another way instead of picking up to get rid of it just for that moment and I have talked to my best friend from when I used to go to NA, which I love and used to go 5 days a week when i could and it kept me clean for two years without doing anything else and I am ready to get back into those and try to put this year behind me and hopefully stop letting it affect me to where I get so depressed that i turn to drugs and pick up the pieces and get my life back together to how it used to be, back when I was clean and happy and I guess that turned into an update lol so thank you guys, I am feeling much better and I am feeling strong enough to fight this and I’m in a good mood because I feel excited about getting my life back so y’all please keep praying for me and thank u again 
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You will absolutely be in my thoughts and prayers! We are all here to support you. May you be blessed with the strength, courage, and faith to walk towards the light of recovery…one baby step at a time 
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Glad you gave us an update & that you are doing better 
Meth is nothing to mess around with. I recall my struggles to, in addition to alcohol.
I'm sorry to read about the brain injury from the car wreck & the subsequent depression. I'm assuming you have a doctor to reach out to. I've heard nurses & doctors make the worst patients, often denying seeking help. I implore you to not be like that and see your primary to get a referral to get tested in case you need something to help "balance" your body's natural chemicals to reduce the depression. For YEARS I self medicated until an uncle on my dad's side told my mom that there's a chemical imbalance in the family! This lead me to try several prescriptions before finding the right one to make me feel "even"
Please keep us posted! I send my 
your way.
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Sending prayers and love your way Girl!!!
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Call an ambulance if you have any doubt. Better safe than sorry. Have never done meth but will pray for a positive outcome
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Methamphetamine is one of the drugs that actually rewrite your brain. You are feeling weird and different because you don’t have that chemical in your brain is looking for it. I would suggest that you see a medical professional immediately or just now that only the symptoms can be treated. Proud of you keep going you can do this it just takes a little while in meth was the drug of choice
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Hi Crystal, how are you feeling? If you feel weird enough to be scared, you most likely need to be seen by a doctor. When I was detoxing by myself at home, and I started to feel bizarre, I called an ambulance. Thank God, bc my blood pressure shot up high enough to stroke out. In the ER, they hydrated me, and gave me meds to help through the worst part of the withdrawals. Something to help me sleep, something for the horrible nausea. They controlled the blood pressure, and I went to stay with a family member for a few days. It is always better to be safe than sorry. There are lots of hospitals, go to a different one than the one you worked at. You must have had a doctor taking care of you after your accident that took care of your brain injury. Don't play doctor with yourself. It is always better to be under A KNOWLEDGEABLE doctor's care than trying to do it all yourself. I am not sure what you are weaning off of....but some drugs cannot be just stopped like that. You have to go off of them slowly.
The very best to you. Just be careful. Had I not called an ambulance, I probably would have had a stroke. Just think about it. Glad you are here. We keep each other clean and sober. Keep coming back and update us, ok?
I feel the exact way on subutex it makes me feel sorta numb inside not high at all sorts like a I don’t want to feel I think safe crutch but not cause I don’t feel I’m living to my full potential I don’t feel I’m loving as much as I can be w pets (altho my world 
) idk I just can really identify w you I want off don’t need it off street drugs alcohol 3 plus yeSrs I want to be free wow felt good to read yours snd write this thank you for your honesty