I recently found out my bf started using again and

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I recently found out my bf started using again and on top of that had been cheating and lying to me for the last month.

I had a scary experience yesterday morning where he decided to lash out and take his anger out on me. Needless to say, my day ended in several bruisings, a death threat and him getting arrested. He seriously needs help with his relapsing and going back to the drugs.

I am no longer associated with this person for the abuse and h*ll i went through yesterday. Hes fully trying to deny that it ever happened.

I am very hurt and in a lot of pain...never in a million years did i think i would ever go through this with anyone.

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#2

That sucks

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#4

Addiction IS a disease of sorts and I am sorry to hear what you went through. Understand that when we are active in our addiction we don't see things clearly. We don't see truth fully.

This is why we work every mother flippin day at active recovery because it's that or active addiction. Hate the addiction, not the addict. I'm sure you get it. Abuse is never OK. I've been there too. I've been bloodied, I've been verbally abused and abusive. Mentally the same. By the grace of God I've avoided striking a female. I now realize due to other things I thought "I'd never" that it was through my higher power, not I, that I never. The better ai realize this, the more I love my HP, myself, other, and in that order.

This is the frame of mindset that helps me to cope with it all, when I'm in that mindset. Hope it helps and truly, I am sorry and will pray for all involved.

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#5

Truth, and I meant to mention, that a big part of the love thing is trust. Trusting my hp will protect those I care about but cannot be near, that good will come of all the seemingly negative. That ME, Joshua, will do a better job of setting boundaries going forward in my life or understand there will be h3ll to pay... etc etc. That I will be more active in my recovery and trust that energy will pay off positively bc that is the way it works. And it does work when and if we work it.

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#6

I’m so sorry you had to go through that. Josh UA has some great words there. Prayers to you and him that he will seek the help he needs. Being on the sober journey is hard enough without abuse involved. I wish you the very best in your recovery and healing🙏

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#7

Oh my dear that's terrible but I'm so happy to hear you are done! What will you do when he comes back begging and apologizing?? Take some time for you and practice some self care 🪻🦋🧚‍♂️

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