I relapsed it’s been a year and three months I mean, dearest sad, however, respectful of what is happened I don’t know who to talk to
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If you are in the program, go to a meeting 
Always remember you didn’t fail at sobriety and now you just get up and start again. Talk to your sponsor if you have one.
We are all here to pick you up!
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Kk
I was at a meeting just this Monday where someone shared they relapsed after 10 years of sobriety….. they got back up and went to AA and started on day one. Sh!t happens we just have to pick ourselves back up and fight again 
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Good job on being honest about it with us. Now can put it behind you and start again. You've got this!
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Lori.. You fell off. Don’t worry get back up & start over. You took one step backwards. You go back and get at it. You have this app to give you courage and fight this disease. I wish you the best & don’t let this get you down Lori.
Morning Lori, are you in a program? For me I would discuss it with my sponsor and in the rooms. I use to be a major skeptic of AA but I have it a chance and it does work! Anyway, Relapse is a part of recovery for many if not most people. It’s already history. What matters is today. Get through today. To relapse and return to sobriety is a sign of growth and progress and I give you much respect for that. Progress not perfection. Give yourself a break and get back up!
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Recovery is a journey. You just went thru a rough stretch. Sometimes the lessons learned during these down times are exactly what we need to propel us into better times. Take what you’ve learned and move forward. I suggest getting involved in a daily recovery regiment. The mindfulness of a daily program keeps me “on the beam”. I benefit greatly from AA. Between the meetings, the 12 steps, my sponsor, and friends…it has been life changing.
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I have learned something from every relapse I have ever had. Most importantly they each made me turn to my program more and surround myself with with recovery. It’s just part of your path. I tried to never forget how bad I felt each time and I used that finally find my foundation. Don’t beat yourself up, say a prayer, call an alcoholic and try to go to a meeting and share that experience. The honesty will be appreciated and many will support and hug you on your new start. We make it out to be so devastating in our mind, but you admitted it and are still here, make today a new chapter 
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I relapsed after 2 years and I felt ashamed too but it was a moment and now this is a new one. Start again and forgive yourself. U can do it. Be kind to urself about this.. relapse happens. It’s what u do next that really counts. 
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I’m always here with an open ear, as I’m sure many of us are.
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Relapse is a part of recovery! You're okay, just need to connect with your meetings, and a sponsor if you have one. Listen to what your sponsor tells you.
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Hi Lori, I like information. Read Alcohol Explained by William Porter it's easy to read and understand what alcohol does to keep you addicted. Check out Gillian Tietz's website/ podcast Sober Powered. She's a recovering alcoholic with a wealth of information. She pretty much covers anything you can think of. Reach out anytime 
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Go to a meeting.
Do you have a professional support?
I relapsed after 21 months of getting sober. In hindsight, it was a necessary part of my journey because I was able to see what I had lost and re-dedicate myself. I learned a lot about the disease and powerlessness because of that relapse.
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Lori
The good news is that you are okay and you can start all over. You're not the first person who has relapsed and you certainly won't be the last. I had almost 9 years in 2011 when I relapsed. I relapsed for the same reason that you relapsed. I believed the big lie that alcohol feeds us. It tells us that this time, everything will be okay.
But it never is, is it?
We have to learn to play the scene forward. You may feel some relief for a short period of time but sooner or later you will be right back where you are right now, carrying around more guilt like you are right now realizing that you accomplished absolutely nothing.
You say that you don't know who to talk to. You need to start showing up at AA meetings and start getting yourself a support group going. Get to know the people that you can relate to and get their phone numbers and start using them. The phone numbers don't do us any good if we don't pick up the phone and use them. We have to learn to pick up the phone before we pick up a drink. Once we pick up a drink, it's too late.
And just for the record, I've known many people through the years that relapsed and never made it back. Some of them got killed. Some of them died from alcohol poisoning. It's a tragedy and we never think it can happen to us.
If you start going to meetings again, you will realize after a while that the reason you relapsed was because you believed the big lie.
Today is the first day of the rest of your life. What you do with it is up to you.
Here for you if you need to talk. How are you holding up?
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Hi, Lori.
How are you doing right now?
It’s tough to not beat one’s self up after relapsing.
You showed up and shared here. I relapsed many times, once after close to two years. Then drank for the next six-and pretty much ruined life for this self and those around me.
You already know about meetings so I will add in regards to the information arena. Yes. I like information also.
Books, podcasts, etc.
Laura McKowen is out with a new book.
Believe that the title is Push Off From Here.
I ordered it today.
Yes. Holly Whitaker, who has been mentioned.
Gabor Mate, his research / writings. He addresses addiction with compassion. I appreciate his research. Also…
Annie Grace, This Naked Mind.
Russell Brand’s book: Recovery.
Belle Robertson’s blog:
Tired of Thinking About Drinking.
The resources are endless.
Please keep reaching out and give yourself some grace. You can do this, Lori.
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Relapse happens long before the drink or drug. See what you can learn and let yourself off the hook! Meetings will help. ODAAT.
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