I slipped this morning family....I was feeling good too. Does anybody else have a hard time with containing disappointment without alcohol?
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Yes I’ve been there too, all I think is that you just need to accept the fact that you had a relapse and move forward with your program. Put your disappointment and resentment behind you the best you can.
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Ok....I never tried this hard to quit before, so it hurt. But I gotcha...
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The fact that you are disappointed means you really want to change. Try to remember this feeling the next time you want to drink. You can do it!
I struggled with that for a long time, and then I got a really great piece of advice: the key to serenity is LOW EXPECTATIONS. I know it sounds pessimistic, but if you keep the bar low for everyone and anything, all the good stuff that happens feels phenomenal! Also, if you can accept that nothing happens by mistake you’ll be able to find some kind of lesson/growth in those events that used to be disappointing. It works for me!
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And it’s worse if you drink over it, disappointed and disappointed at yourself. Been there many times. Keep coming back.
One of the first things I was taught in sobriety is to lower my expectation level AND to raise my acceptance level.
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Disappointment, anxiety, anger, even happiness. All triggers. The old joke that the alcoholic has a drink to celebrate a good day, or a drink to drown the sorrows of a bad one is painfully true. The why doesn’t matter, only the decision does. The slip is over and done with, put it behind you now and look forward. I always tell my fellow addicts that we have to watch out for the “event” that we use as the excuse to drink. It’s not the event that triggered the slip, it’s your addiction. Addiction will always find an excuse. It’s up to us to realize that and sidestep the obvious wrong solution.
So you start with a clean slate tomorrow. You know what to do. That’s why you’re here. Reach out when you’re tempted and somebody here will talk you down. We’ve all been there. Don’t beat yourself up. Tomorrow is a new day.
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One thing missing in this post. Are you in a recovery program? Zoom or in person meetings. AA,NA, Smart, etc. Can’t do this alone and this site is a good reinforcement for recovery. Yet, it’s not enough for minute to minute or hour to hour support in living life daily. Need a support system in place. Can’t do it alone. It’s a WE program recovery is. Need others to help especially starting out.
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Oh yeah you got a read the books you got to stay on the program you got to clear your head forget about relapse and MoveOn you work the program and it will work for you but you gotta go to meetings
I can relate . I just know that you feeling like that is ok a feeling is not a fact though remember that . U just don’t have to drink because u feel like that . We all have our days
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I know using will result in more disappointment. Disappointment that last longer and is way stronger than the intinal disappointment I picked up in the first place .
It doesn't mean it's the end of your journey but also remember that you're not required to stay there and drink again. Remember the feelings that lead up to the drink and work some recovery instead. Call your sponsor, someone else in the program, or get to a meeting and tell on yourself before you do it. Usually whatever you're going through someone else has before and can relate to you.
Love this! And definitely still working on both 
It’s not about trying harder. Overcoming addiction is done by treatment. Not will.
If you had cancer, would you just try really hard, by yourself, isolated from drs, to make it go away? Or would you seek treatment? Addiction is the same. It’s a treatable disease. But the treatment is not willpower. It’s a program of recovery. Instead of chemo treatments, we go to meetings and build a life we don’t need to escape from.
Yaaaaassss.
I didn't have any other way in my past, any other tools under my belt, on how to deal with conflict, with adversity, with confrontation, with disappointment.no knowledge on how to deal with any of the things that involve dealing with life.
My run too and I assume others have the same issue. Is alcohol and drugs. It's A coping mechanism for a few reasons.
It's easily accessible. as long as I have money or friends willing to contribute the substance. It literally releases and changes chemical compositions in your brain and body, that mimic genuine pleasure and relief.
So when you start consuming the substances your body goes into this mode of disgenuine peace.
Part of my walk in recovery right now, is journaling. I write all these things down about how I feel in certain situations while I'm just under a year sober.
This is essential. I got some jacked up mentalities floating around upstairs. The more I write about them the more I recognize them.
I'm not saying that's going to keep sober. I once I got to a certain part in journaling. I started to recognize these triggers. I started writing out plans on how I would escape without substances or deal with real life issues head on.
Unfortunately this walk into sobriety is going to be an extremely uncomfortable thing. Because once we get that time of sobriety under our belts we got to figure out how to keep it in all situations. Without substances.
Because addiction is a Sly ambitious disease, that seeks your company in its own glorious misery.
Become humble, seek help! Go to meetings. Get clinical therapy. Consider a treatment center, if you want any amount of time in which to be in a safe place to look at yourself and what causes you to turn back to the drink and or drugs.
I highly suggest this as I've just finished 10 months and sobriety in a treatment center. there's no way with habits and people that I was involved with that I would have had time to stop, look and address the mess that I really became.
In 366 days I've only slipped up twice. 2×48hr periods. (Lethal abundance of narcotics)
I remind myself that the end game is NOT to stay clean and sober. That's just a perk. The end game is establishing a healthy enough relationship in i and I that drugs and alcohol is not NECESSARY to be whole.
In that, I have not failed myself. Day by day I've learned skills, habits, routines, that make better my life and health. I make better conscious decisions all the time that help me cope and manage and process everything that comes in and out of my body and aura. On days I feel like its not enough, or that I'm not enough, drugs and alcohol (I've hard learned to determine) is not the "place holder 
" we need. In fact applying a "place holder " in any manner is against what I've been training myself for and will only ensure my short comings down T𝓱ₐ𝚝 ᵣₒₐ𝚍 we've all come to know so well. So in that, I've let myself down. Which can ONLY be undone with ACKNOWLEDGMENT and desire to do better next time.
Getting to know yourself, your interests (and the pursuit of), providing for yourself, and your needs, always striving for your best, and importantly knowing your worth it and deserve it. This will never result in disappointment.
Just tell yourself you could be cuter next time if you didn't [these things], and know in your heart of hearts you will never be ugly no matter anything ever. Also that doing and not doing things, people, or places.. Isn't what makes you cute.
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