I had my gratitude all typed out. So many things. I have now forgotten what I had written.....my thoughts are silent and somber now.
My heart is absolutely broken. I was approached before work by our director. She informed my the company made a mistake by hiring me.
I have 3 degrees. I am a certified teacher. My doctorate is in administration with the emphasis being in mental health. 30 years of experience.
I do not have a state license in mental health.
I do the work of 2 people as presented to me a couple of weeks ago by the data reports. I serve 70 clients to the others who serve 50 or less.
Clients are referring their friends and family to me for their therapy needs, substance use issues and bring their kids to me for group DBT.
I am serving my community. I am working towards certification in the Domestic violence sector for which requires 72 hours of supervision and no degrees as well as helping facilitate in this area.
I am devastated 
. My supervisor does not have a license. A coworker does not have a license. They do have degrees in psychology. Their reports and assessments have to be approved by a licensed person just as mine have had to be. All of sudden I am told I should have never been hired with my degrees being in education. HR just saw all the letters behind my name and went forward with hiring. Apparently the issue is the POSSIBILITY that medicaid will not make payments for my services because there is no license for me and MAY have an issue with the director signing off on my work. Just as she has been doing and has to do with the others.
I am grateful for my supervisors who are getting creative with a job description in order to create a position if possible. My supervisor is looking at writing a grant to keep me servicing our community. I am grateful for their support and the support from the other clinical team members...I mean even our psychiatric department medical providers refer patients specifically to be seen by me. I know this is not personal. I am just sad. I am grateful for them and the support.
I am grateful for being given a couple of hours this evening and tomorrow morning to clear my mind and settle with this information.
I am grateful my best friend had the day off and could listen to me as I tried to begin processing this news.
I know I had written my gratitude this morning and I am grateful for having had the time to do so. I am grateful to have a sober mindset. I AM GRATEFUL FOR BEING ONE DAY CLOSER TO 2 YEARS OF SOBRIETY!!! I am grateful that my thoughts of drinking were not even an issue. As I drove home this evening, I realized that I had not a craving or an ioda of desire to drink. Big deal, to me.
I am grateful for having clients today that brought me joy 
. I am grateful they appreciated our session.
Lil Man and Lucy. I forgot to place my grocery order, AGAIN!! So, the two of them enjoyed Chick-fil-A tonight. I enjoyed watching them be so happy with their dinner. I am grateful for the prayers I have asked for.
Today I am sober. I am grateful for choosing sobriety today.