I stumbled upon this app accidentally and was instantly intrigued but didn't go beyond seeing the option to download the app but curiosity plagued me. I'm an alcoholic, had my last drink on April 30th, 2012 but save the first year of sobriety I am struggling, dealing with many challenges I know so many of you warriors and people pleasers by nature understand, I'm a single dad raising my 14 year old daughter and helping my identical twin brother recover from strokes he suffered. I am finding it difficult to articulate how I feel but loneliness, a sense of pending doom, a lack of (the list is extensive but includes a sense of self-worth, inadequacy, a complete lack of desire to do anything and participate in social events I once shined and easily made friends at) to do much of anything and am a shell of my former self. I feel a sense of time diminishing rapidly, and feel tremendous sadness at how heartbreakingly unkind our society seems and I literally feel like I'm mourning the loss of myself. I have always operated with the belief that the greatest currency humanity will ever possess is how we treat people and kindness, integrity, positivity, and helping those in need ultimately allows us to accumulate wealth the 1 percenters will never experience but I feel like the greater good of humanity might not reign supreme after all and I don't understand the hatred, the lack of unity, our self-destructive tendencies, what we put the most value on...and I think I have lost the hope, my childlike sense of wonder I was well known for, and belief in true enchantment and the sadness and disappointment is the saddest feeling I've felt and as a half Cree Native American with generational trauma and the horrors from childhood onward and chronic pain that's saying a lot. I don't want to expose people to my newfound hindsight bias and above average cynicism and I am praying my faith in humanity can be restored. I love things (too many to list) like music, hockey (I was born in Toronto), cinematic history and the art form in its entirety and I love so many forms of art and creativity and I'm loyal, I don't ignore people who are on the street in need of some form of care, I have had some wild and experiences that many would likely doubt (but I don't care) and I loathe seeing people get hurt whether it's emotional or physical but believe people who hurt children, women, vulnerable people, and even strong macho dudes and dudettes deserve a lengthy torture sentence and people who hurt animals suck.
I am sick of me already so I have a sneaking suspicion you are too but I wish every one of you happiness, good health, triumph, fulfillment, love, and safety.
Thanks for this unique and clever platform/app. I would be thrilled if I found my future ex-wife on here 🫤
