I think I might just now be processing a break up from a decade ago. My drinking steadily grew as that relationship was collapsing, and erupted after it did end. It went on for years after that. I guess now that I've been sober for a decent enough time, it's now setting back in on me. I've been missing her and the relationship and feeling really lonely lately. And I'm assuming this is at least part of why I have stayed far away from dating and really anything intimate for years now. I'm just overwhelmed.
