I think it’s time

Struggling Help
#1

I love drinking amazing wine from all around the world and cocktails like Negronis and Martinis, and East Coast IPAs and craft beers.

The thing is that this year and probably many other years I have blacked out, had a few nights where I fade to black and don’t remember anything. I had one night where I thought I’d been drugged with fentanyl as I felt like I was dieing and slipping away. I survived. And then a few weeks later I found myself at home watching Euphoria, and decided to google “how much klonopin can you snort with alcohol”. Needless to say it’s not a great idea, especially when I run a company with 20 people, and have a wife I love. I am also taking a whole cocktail of meds to try and deal with insomnia and intense GAD and stress.

You’d think I’m an addict by the sounds of it, but I’m well loved, friendly, successful, have many friends and by all accounts have a lot to be thankful for.

Perhaps that’s what makes “giving up” alcohol so hard. It’s everywhere, and even when I tell people I shouldn’t drink, when there is a bottle of barolo or burgundy or the finest tequila being poured and enjoyed by everyone it makes it really hard, and to easy to give in and go with the flow.

I’m sure there must be people like me out there but in New York it feels like absolutely everyone and their dog drinks, and so much of life revolves around drinking.

Wish there was an easier way.

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#2

Sobriety is the easier way brother.

Alcoholism is progressive. There’s no rewind. You can stop the progression now, while life seems pretty good, or you can risk watching it slowly all slip away.

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#3

Thanks. Yeah that’s how I feel now… slowly watching things slip away. Thanks for the support.

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#4

We all think everyone will judge us for not drinking. Truth is most ppl don’t care. They only care about themselves.

If someone gives you a hard time about not drinking it says much more about them than it does you.

#5

I live in Milwaukee… you wanna talk about a drinking town this is it! I know where you are coming from. The desire to just “enjoy” the fine wines, liquor or beers. All the flavors. But how much do you enjoy them when you are blacked out? How much of a fool, or what bad choices have you made when in that state? Alcohol is a sneaky b@stard. It will progressively get worse, until you don’t see the bottom and it hits you. Start adding other drugs on top of it and that is just a recipe for disaster. After a year sober I can tel you those that matter don’t mind and those that mind don’t matter. Getting sober is something you need to decide to do for yourself. Good luck man.

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