I thought when my daughter left to Florida with my

I thought when my daughter left to Florida with my grand baby twin girls I thought I’d relapse for the fear of missing them so much. I’ve been having a lot of using dreams. I hate it. I have been tested my kids have wine left on the counter I went as far to pick up bottles. I thought I’d it but put it back down. So tired of feeling pain just want to be numb. Good thing I didn’t do it.