There’s nothing more humbling than a relapse after having had achieved long term sobriety. I had nearly 18 months. In a blink of an eye I lost it. I’m feeling kinda defeated 
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humbling indeed, but not lost-those 18 months are yours to keep, learn from, and move forward. great 4 u..
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Thank you John! I needed to hear that today 
You can do this, it’s better to have to start again than to live life using. As long as you have today you have as much time as any one else. ODAAT
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I’m trying to remind myself of this ❤️🩹
Welcome back
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What matters is you are back. Be proud of your 18 months and knowing you can do that and more!
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It happened to me as well. I thought I’d never drink/use again. I got sober young and was abstinent for over 2 decades. The good news is I’m back and have never felt better. You can do the same
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Thank you!
Thank you Mandy 
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That’s comforting to hear 
18 months is a huge accomplishment, Angelica. A relapse doesnt erase those 18 months any more than 1 rainy day erases a summer. 
U already know how much better your health felt, how confident and beautiful sobriety made you feel, and how it improved your relationships. The best part is you don't have to wonder if it's worth it—you already know it is. You've done it before, and you can absolutely do it again. 
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Anjelica
Blake here. I understand how you’re feeling. Until last November I relapsed everyday for nearly 20 years. I’m not exaggerating. I’d quit in the morning and relapse by 4pm. After a while I’d gotten tired of the “try” in trying to quit. I’d given up and settled for a lifestyle of drinking. Done.
What I learned was that I was choosing an old “solution” to just about every problem I’d face.
Something happened when I’d gone to the dentist. The hygienist noticed that I was a smoker and commented during the exam. In short, I told her I was cutting back. She said “Why don’t you just quit?”
That remark sparked something in me.
“Yeah! Why don’t I quit?”
I remembered that I wasn’t born with a cigar in my mouth therefore I didn’t need it. Just realizing that I did not have to smoke….
…that I wasn’t required to was a liberating thought. I had been defeated before ever putting up a fight. 
DON’T FEEL DEFEATED!
That’s an order! 🫡
u got it, stay in touch..
Relapse is an event...not a place we stay. Tomorrow is a new day. Keep the process so there is progress!
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I relate, 17 years for me. Then relapsed. As the saying goes... Never say never
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Be not disappointed for relapse is a process in this journey.It’s not that you feel but how you must rise having greater will.