I’ve been struggling for 3 months now. I’m having a hard time deciding if I should stay in my relationship and try fighting to get myself better but the expectations are overwhelming and I don’t think it’s fair to him that I lie and take advantage of his love for me… I don’t have anywhere I can stay so I feel stuck af. I know I need to get back into therapy. Any advice would be helpful. Thanks.
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Ugh that’s a lot to take in.
First are you safe staying for now? Cuz if you’re not happy I would leave the relationship. Being in unhappy circumstances is giant trigger to get high.
My own opinion- no therapist just older ex-junkie
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Honesty is all anyone can give in love.
Yes I am safe. And I am very happy when I’m sober but once he finds out about my slips all the guilt maximizes and he throw everything he’s done for me in my face.. which makes me want to run even harder.
Sorry for venting.. I was feeling defeated yesterday.. when your codependent but extremely detached at the same time, it gets complicated.
I emailed a behavioral health counselor so hopefully I hear back this week! 🩵🩵
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If you believe he truly loves you, then try being honest with him keeping in mind that you don’t wanna ruin his world to save yours.
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