I’ve been struggling with cannabis use for a long time. Some people might say that it’s not addictive. I don’t know. All I know is for me my life was, and in some ways is, still unmanageable. I devolved into a shell of the person I was before I started using. Goals and dreams went up in smoke. Paranoia was constant. And what was worst was the collateral damage my use caused to my family and friends.
I want to do better, but it’s so hard to give it up. I used from the minute I woke up right up to bed time.
I’ve had periods of sobriety from cannabis, but during those periods I found myself turning to alcohol more and more. Knowing my tendency to take things too far, I cut out alcohol. But I am afraid when I quit pot again I’ll have the same craving to dull my feelings.
I’m on day two. And I’m taking it one day at a time.