I’ve had a difficult couple of days. I have a very strong feeling that the woman I’m staying with has been getting high. What bothers me is her lies, and actions then accuses me of being standoffish with her cause I’m not doing a lot of talking. I’m trying to get my head right, I don’t need to worry about what she is doing. Which I really don’t but we are in a tight space here so I hear conversations and know when she is here or not. I am proud of myself because I have no urge to use at all. And that I am most grateful for……. She does not take care of herself at all and that is really bothering me. And she claims it has nothing to do with depression. I don’t believe that for a minute.. that’s bull. I’m very mindful of my environment, especially when it’s not mine. I always pick up after myself, do the dishes, stuff like that. And she just sits and nods all day long. I can’t stand looking at it. But I’m kinda in a bind right now. See she took me when I had to leave the room I was renting after my unemployment stopped. I can’t work right now because I need a hip replacement in a few months. And my goal is to recover quickly and get out of here as quick as possible. I’m trying to make the best out of a not great situation. Im grateful to have a roof over my head, and food to eat. This is part of my journey. Im sure there is a lesson in this somewhere.
Thanks for listening & have a good night….
