I’ve just passed 75 days of sobriety. Being able to count the days makes it feels like such a minuscule amount of time, but seeing the difference in my habits and attitudes gives the illusion of greater length. Perhaps it’s the long winter or the ripples in time life creates through events and holidays. I’m convinced having undergone (and still undergoing) a psychic change as a result of sobriety and following a program has propped up this facade of new life. True, I am physically the same person I was 75 days ago when I stopped using all substances, or even 8 months ago when I stopped drinking to start this positive psychosis. Even more so true, who I am today despises who I was. I am mentally and spiritually a new and different man, experiencing life with it’s ups and downs sober; as if learning to walk again, falling sometimes and maintaining balance on the next attempt. To drink or use again is to die because to drink or use again would kill the man I am now.
Truly, I am blessed to know all of this and to have the tools to continue this journey!
Good Job