I’ve made it almost a week.
Keeping my mind in a positive state has helped. I’m finding myself having emotional responses to random situations that occur with strangers and I have to remind myself what I’m going through and to be calm- I’m easily angered the last few days and it’s scary - how angry I’ll get. Once I can calm down im able to rationalize I was just way more upset than the situation called for - but by that time I’ve already hurt myself, broken something, ruined a moment or hurt someone else. I pulled out everything and just sat it in front of me… i cried. And then put it all away. I didn’t use today but I wanted to & got closer than Im comfortable with. I want to get rid of this stuff but im scared I won’t have it when i need it although my goal is to not need it… 
clearly im a mess.
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Hello Maple. I'm sorry to hear of the emotional struggling, I am similar from time to time. I hope you feel better soon. I'm a mess too, working on plenty of things to live my life better.
Hiya, I feel you. My anger is like a switch connected to dynamite. Is there an outlet to use that anger? Music, art, exercise? I find that running or moving my body somehow gets all that energy out. It’s ok to feel that way though, you have every reason to be angry. Here for you if you need a chat ❤️🩹❤️🩹