I want off this rollercoaster

Recovery
#1

I want off this rollercoaster....

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#2

I wish I could say it goes away, but it doesn’t. You just learn to how to enjoy and manage the ride correctly the longer your sober, and the longer you work a program and rely on your HP.

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#3

Well, that effing sucks...I'm tired.....I'm just so dayum tired.

#4

Just keep coming back, involve yourself as much as possible in meetings, service and get a sponsor. Get into the steps, they really are the key to the rollercoaster. I know the feeling I’m still on this journey too, I just know that having a community behind me that I allow to help me and I’m honest with, and let them know how I’m feeling a lot of them come through. And I’m not alone. Get involved and hold on like hel l, eventually you’ll be able to loosen the grip and sometimes you’ll have to grip hard again. It’s not easy but it’s way worth it. I by no means have the answers to anything but if you need a friend I’m here for you.

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#5

Thank you, I just feel like a lost cause lately. I just don't want to sometimes. I don't want to show up and it's hard enough just to do the normal day to day stuff and I'm already on flipping meds...fml

#6

Same, I’ve spent the last two days isolating in my room, I have not gone to work in over a month. I take meds as well, I’m exhausted from life, emotions, recovery and so forth. But I’m sober, and as much as I’m ready to throw the towel in, the little part in that is holding on makes me and pushes me to a meeting. And talk to my sponsor. And once I’m around those who know and feel the way I do things are better and feel better. Just get to a meeting.

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#7

You're a beautiful soul. I'd be more scared if I didn't have my wife and kids....I still can't even handle myself, I wish I could be oblivious or just stop effing thinking

#8

Honestly, best advice I’ve gotten is to start the steps. There are two books. A soft book call “Narcotics Anonymous Step working working guide” and a hard book called “it works how and why” the twelve traditions. Even if you just struggling with alcohol it’s all the same. The step working guide alone is good and is perfect to do the steps, but together you get a bigger picture. And if you can’t do it for you. Do it for your family.

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#9

Thank you