It wasn’t a good day for me.
I gambled away a lot of money today, trying to distract myself from my emotions, and I regret it so much.
I just wanted to escape for awhile, but I lost a lot of money.
I just wanted to escape all day. I’m so tired of feeling my emotions. I can’t drink even a little tiny bit, do drugs, smoke weed. I can’t do anything to escape, even for just a little while.
I am over 6 months sober and its still so hard for me, is this normal? Anyone else feel this way?
I thought it would be eaiser by now, if just isnt.
(I also have been to rehab. I went for 3 months. Wouldn’t have even reached 3 months if I didnt go. After rehab immediately got put on an ankle alcohol monitor. So if i drink, I go to jail. So I won’t drink, but I am scared for when the mointor comes off.)