I dint know what else to do I have 5 years clean but ind I’m t think I can stay this way I really wanna get high
I hope you don't; getting high will only set you back. What can you find joy in today?
Wow 5 years clean that’s great keep it moving brother you got this…what’s making you want to get high?
Just stay clean for today 
Why? Why do you feel that using will help in any way? Play the tape all the way through man… you know how the story ends, and it is never good. Stay strong, get to a meeting, call a sober friend, sponsor… anyone.
I don’t have anyone that would take the time right now to talk
Sorry man but that sounds like an excuse. To me it sounds like you are trying to justify using in your head. You are stronger than That! You have 5 years clean. Hel! dm me I will give you my number and we can talk.