I’ve got 117 days. Never been sober this long before. I’m going to meetings. I now have a sponsor and have started step work. When I get cravings I call people or logic my way through what a drink to the end means and get myself through it. I’m just absolutely exhausted. I feel like I’m on guard from myself at literally all times. I’m so f**king tired. Is this what sobriety is?
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Stay with it. It gets better, I promise.
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It does get better Paige…. Month 7 was so hard for me I was losing it but like they say “this too shall pass” and it did. I feel a whole lot better in my sobriety. Don’t give up! 
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Allen Carr’s book: Quit drinking without willpower”. I promise you, you’ll feel less exhausted after reading even the first 50 pages…
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Congrats on the 117 days…that’s huge!!! I remember feeling this way…f’n exhausted!! Part of it is you are feeling your feelings again. It’s mentally taxing to start feeling again, and learning to process them. It does feel like a sh!t ton of work in the beginning, but I promise it will get better. You will learn to pause and slow things down as you get more comfortable. Meanwhile, let’s celebrate your sobriety 
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Your mind and body are adjusting… it takes time. You just keep sober for one day at a time. Give yourself a well deserved break. Do something you enjoy, take a walk, go kayaking, take a weekend and do absolutely nothing. You will get over this hump. It happens to us all at some point.
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We have to relearn how to deal with life on life's terms without "help" from alcohol. It takes time. Just keep doing what you are doing. It does get better. Congrats on 117 days!
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Don’t give up before the miracle happens.  Find things to be grateful for.  I’m grateful potion won’t drink again.
If you're truly working the steps with a sponsor who's worked the steps you ought to be Doing your fourth step and readying to do step five. Our sponsor should be able to not only explain each step as a how to do the step. But to physically, mentally and spiritually walk you through each step as a action, not just a thought process. For me God is the power behind AA. God can truly carry you and guide you. Don't throw away your sobriety...
I hit a bottom around that time and it gets much, much, better.
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Don’t quit before the miracle happens. Wait and see
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I get so tired too. Sometimes I want to give up. But we can't. It would be so much worse.
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Think about how far you have come. For me 117 seems impossible. You are inspiring
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No, it’s not like that forever, but you have to find some method of getting serenity in peace
That doesn’t involve relapsing
I feel the exact same way and I felt the same way even when I had a year before I relapsed and now at 90 days, no amount of advice helps. I understand. If you need someone to talk you can add me
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Paige I know you’re discouraged perhaps but I understand completely. If it helps I have had nothing help me more than a Zoom meeting out of Landsdale PA for many an various reasons I won’t belabor you with. I go at 7:15 AM almost everyday. They have others and face to face meetings but this group is very special and caring as well as competent. Expect a Miracle! That the name you can find it in the intergroup or through SEPIA. Best love and prayers, remember you are worth having a commitment!
It gets better!!! Stay strong and don’t give up!
That is and this what is all about, look at the good that has happen in these days. The feelings, the better smile, it growth kept it up..