I was feeling good lately. Nothing terrible happened today. And then suddenly I just felt so awful. I can see myself slipping back into my dark times. I've been sober for a year and a few months. Im 600+ days into my sobriety and Im so upset that I am so tempted to throw all my hardwork away. I feel so trapped and overwhelmed. I feel torn. I know emotions are temporary, theyre always changing. But its so heavy. I dont have the energy to do any of my safety options.
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Are you ok? Just saw this. You hanging in there? Nobody ever said recovery was always gonna be a pink cloud. It’s life coming at you full force. Just keep going. You’ve gone this far without. You know what to do. Meetings, that 600 lb. Phone, keep reaching out. Talking. Chatting. Just don’t pick up and you’ll get better.
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Call a friend or family member. If it's one thing I've learned is it's us addicts are afraid of asking for help! It's okay to have dark days, but sitting with that pent up tension and stress from triggers is the worst feeling
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Im feeling a bit better. I guess it was an intense depressive episode. I appreciate you guys and this community. Still going strong and I didnt pick up.
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Thats true. Its hard to ask for help sometimes. Sitting with a feeling can be helpful, but I think I was just drowing in shame. Thank yall for the support
We need a lot of help in the beginning which means more people.aa meetings will help.aa. Org