I was just scrolling on my social media and they had a question on there. What did addiction take from you and a lot of of the responses were everything including mine. I have been in Recovery for four years almost 5 months. My recovery date is 211 or 22 and I still struggle every single day. I have not yet regained anything that my addiction took from me and that’s not necessarily my fault is because I got a lot of men who block in my life and they swear they’re the best thing that’s ever for me. I have struggled for nine years of my life, every single day getting pounded on beat down degrade it betrayed disloyalty, disrespect disrespectful things have happened to me, and I am doing absolutely nothing but sitting here and allowing it to happen because I don’t know where this person is that’s doing these things to me . He has a tendency to hide and peep in pier, but never shows and stand on 10 as a man, but he guarantees me that he’s a good man yet to follow nobody agrees with what the heck is coming out of his mouth meanwhile while he’s lying on me, I have quit smoking a drink only on occasion and I don’t do drugs to save my life I don’t even hang with my old friends, my old Situationships or anything else for that matter, but at the end of the day , what comes out of his mouth it’s total disrespect, and he wonders why he will never be standing beside me, I don’t want a man in my life that’s gonna rip me down. I’m too busy trying to build myself up for that even in my addiction. I was never disrespected the way this man runs around and disrespects me yet and steal. They wonder why I never will mess with them. Why put myself through all the hatred that comes out of your mouth just for not to lay on my back. I will never shame myself nor my family in that way by laying down with a dog like you so you can stand there and you can scream and shout and you get powder scream I’m a man and all this other stuff of course you’re a man you’ve grown into a man but do you act like a man no, you do not for one. If you were a man the way you chased me around my daughter would never lost that apartment. we would not be in this hotel right now , baking on see my recovery will never depend on what you think of me or how you feel about me my recovery is my decision is my choice to get up every single day and make a conscious decision about my life and stick to that you think that I care that you are acting a fool behind me you behind me . I stopped looking in the rearview mirror a long time ago, and I allow myself to look forward every day and behind me is where you will stay somebody else bank account. I would be right there in my daughter‘s apartment waiting to get in Mine❤️, but you have the audacity in a nerve to follow me around and portray propaganda and play games with everybody around me instead of standing on your own 2 feet as a man and that I can’t live with everything including mine
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Do your best to stand on your own never rely on any man or anybody you're stronger than you think give yourself credit have faith in God that he's going to lead you in the right direction sounds like you've had a hard time in life and I'm sorry for that but if you're going to do this recovery thing do it all the way don't do it half way believing yourself and everything else will come together just have patience