I was sober for 5 months this last time

I was sober for 5 months this last time.
My husband smokes pot . Its something we.ve always been able to do together .
We went on vacay a while back and i smoked w him .
I said only cause we.re on vacay . Then it became . The holidays . And it was well only cause its thanksgiving . Gotta grub and smoke . Then it was ok only on weekends . And of course it turned back into everyday . . Its saturday . The weekend. I smoke exxtra on saturdays . A little triggered. But leaning way more toward keep pushing forward on the clean path.