I was sober for eight months. I decided to reintroduce alcohol in hopes I could moderate it. I was doing okay, but as of late, I’ve been worse. Two nights ago I went to the bar after drinking wine, and I don’t remember coming home, barely remember the bar. I came home at five am.
I’m so disappointed in myself. I told myself I’d never black out again, I hate the guilt and fear that comes with not remembering. All I can do is do better. But I’m so ashamed.
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Try not to feel too bad about yourself I had a little over 3 months sober from drinking and decided to stop at the store on the way home from work for no reason other than I felt like I wanted a few drinks. Ended up with way more than just a few and felt terrible the next morning physically and mentally with the guilt and shame but decided to not let that night define me and give up hope. Haven't had a drink since that night and it's been a little over a month since that night. Please don't give up on yourself your worth more than your mistakes.
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Thank you for your kind words 
they’re so appreciated
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No problem if you need a friend or someone to talk to don't hesitate to reach out to me. I just discovered this app today and know what it's like to go through some of the same struggles and feelings. You are not alone!
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Hey Stacey, don't beat yourself up. A relapse doesn't define you, it's a set back. I'm almost 5 months sober from my last. It was bad. Always remember 1 drink is too much, 1000 is never enough. Most find out the hard myself included. You should read Alcohol Explained by William Porter. It's easy to read and understand what alcohol does to a person. It will explain what happened to you with that first drink. Anytime you want reach out your not alone in this. Best of luck
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You can never have another drink for as long as you live. That's me included. Or frankly it will kill us. I may have officially hit old man status I'm not ready for that.
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Ahhh, you just might have a drinking problem. Welcome and hope you can figure out what needs to be done. Up to you. Ever try a meeting?
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It look me years to learn that as someone with an alcohol abuse disorder- there is no moderation.
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Thank you Charlie. This was so helpful.
I believe you’re right.
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Do not be ashamed I don't know where my money goes half the time but more than likely drugs
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Today is a new day!!!
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Stacey don’t beat yourself up. Everyone makes mistakes. But now you have to take lessons from it
Forgive yourself and get up.
Been there so many times!!!!!! Tomorrow is a new day for a lot of us! Let’s try to do it!!! Love you Loosid family!!$!!
How are you doing Stacey?