I wasn't born into a loving family. I grew up in a violent home filled with alcohol,violent fights between my parents',my Dad and biological mother were violent drunks and my mother still is along with my 3rd step Dad. My Dad was violent towards my mother and I and my mother was violent towards me then I started to fight back at a very young age. My Dad was in jail twice when I was a kid then he took off to Barrie for a month and my mother was cheating on my Dad a lot and I caught her a lot. The cop's and children's aid didn't do sht for me and no one in my family protected me,took me out of that environment and no one protected whatsoever so at the age of 8,I was a red flag because of how violent I caught because of all the beatings I got. My mother left my Dad for some guy in North Bay when I was 12 and my Dad's drinking got much worse,my beatings got worse and my violence got worse. At 13 I moved to North Bay by myself where more violence happened and my drug use of meth and my drinking got bad the worse my beatings from my mother and first step Dad and my first step Dad choked me out and my mother stood there watching and allowing it to happen and I chose the street life,completed Grade 8 and moved back to Owen Sound. A year's and 2 month's after my Dad died,I began to move around a lot more and more violence and drug and alcohol use,in and out of A.A along with in and out of detox,more stuff happened,I was on house arrest and spent time in jail,in and out of the hospital,in and out of treatment centers and so on. I never had my parents and never really had my family either. I've been on my own and raised myself since too young of a age. I have morals, standards, boundaries,I treat everyone with a certain amount of respect and integrity and I live by a code. I have a very long list of mental illnesses and physical stuff and my mental stuff is Tourette Syndrome,ADHD, severe PTSD, BPD,ODD,manic depression,high anxiety,FASD,speech impairment,learning disabilities but smart in my own ways and no one should ever doubt that ever. Music is my way to speak and get my feelings out so even though I can't sing worth of sht I still sing and I freestyle rap as well. Ever since I could speak,music has been my life and I remember at 4 before my Dad went to jail the first time,he got me the Bat out of H*ll album and I was listening to Def Leppard,Montley Crue,The Eagles,Beach boys and so on. I listen to almost everything just not so much of main stream rap except from 90's to early 2000's. For almost 5 year's I've been living in a small town an hour or so away from work and I keep to myself,mind my own business and I stay in my own lane and cruising through life at my pace and on my terms
Wow, TY for sharing your story, It's incredible that you're able to have such insight into the things that have happened and all you've been through. I didn't have anyone to help me either at a young age and although I grew up in a "nice family", I wound up homeless for almost 12 years on the streets living that life off and on, and nearly dying more times than I can count. I actually did die a few times, but for some reason we are meant to still be here, and I believe helping to save others like ourselves is a big part of that. I too have suffered from varying mental health conditions, but given the circumstances and upbringings, that's how this stuff works, usually. We are of course born with different brain chemistries, but life experiences, especially at a very young age as you were...will cause you to develop some of these mental health disorders. You sound like such an intelligent, well rounded, interesting human being, I hope that you're able to leave all of that behind you and move forward. Help other people that have been through some of the same things as yourself. You have so much to offer! Don't give up and give in to anything but making yourself a better human being and helping the world around you! Thank you, I truly wish the best for you.
Thank you I appreciate it. We all have our own destinies and our own journey's in life but at the end of the day,we all have some same similarities. I am smart in my own way,self taught with more than enough stuff that's got me this far. I was homeless 5 time's in my life and died 3 time's on suicide attempts and almost died too many times to count from overdose, alcohol poisoning and other ways. I'm always willing to help other's any way I can just never financially