I went back out in the streets and it’s tearing me up
When the gift of desperation comes you will be willing to do whatever it takes to get and stay sober. I have been where you are and I encourage you to seek help. I never thought I could enjoy being sober more than I liked being high but I am so happy with my sobriety. If I can do it you can do it. As unappealing as it seems I promise that will change. You just have to work through those lies your addiction is telling you to keep you there. Praying for you!