I went to rehab for alcohol two years ago. I

I went to rehab for alcohol two years ago. I was diagnosed with Manic depression and C-PTSD I was prescribed remeron 15mg. I was there for 34 days, 7 in Detox and the rest of the days in rehab floor (it was separate). I was sober for all of about 90 days When I got out , then people, places and things (more the people part) convinced
me that I could drink socially. I felt like I did for a while.. it’s difficult because I know I have a problem. i’m about to be 34 yrs old and for the last 15 yrs alcohol has caused nothing but destruction in my life. I’ve lost careers,relationships destroyed and put my family through a lot.
i guess what i’m saying is I know i’m an alcoholic and I came out out of rehab Thinking I could just stop drinking without working the steps or attending meeting. last Thursday I went out with my “buddy” Got so hammered i fell down a flight of stairs injured my arm pretty bad. I was in a depressed mood for like a week before we went out and I just over did it. I haven’t had a drink since that night i had bad withdrawal type feeling and it’s Saturday and i haven’t fully recovered from the hangover. im thinking about checking myself in to detox on Monday I don’t wanna be like this anymore

Hey William, I know it may seem like your stuck in a cycle just know that it won’t last forever. Your going to push through to break through. Sending lots of love and prayers

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sure feels like it. ima dad I have 3 yr old going on four next month my son means the world to me me and his mom aren’t together but i get him every other weekend i’ve never drank around him and i stay sober when i have my visits with him but when I don’t and I think about how he doesn’t live with me It depresses me and I run to the bottle but Im tired of feeling like this. one day at a time it is i guess… I appreciate the love prayers and words of encouragement

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