I woke up this morning.The 1st day I've slept in my recovery.Took 2:38 PM and not have worked.My behind off for days at a time to end up with nothing in my pocket.But rent money, I'm saying this to say that every struggle has been better than every struggle that I have faced in my addiction being out on the streets, it wasn't easy coming back. But it was worth a comeback being a part of my children's lives, and when they go through things, they could pick up the phone and call me instead of just Me high and out of the way for the first time in a long time, I know that I made the right decision to save my life, because now, my children have their mom's back and we sit and we together, we cry together, we have sleepovers together. There's nothing hidden. My daughter woke up this morning, and she was sick. And I was able to be there. You shouldn't have to pick up the phone and call her mom. I was actually here and I was cleaning and I was sober and I was able to help and comfort her things that I hadn't done in so long and I don't really think people understand what that feels like. Especially being a mom and not really wanting to be out there but not having a choice, I wasn't given very many choices because it was always me being thrown into one bad situation after the next, but today I faced the same bad situations but I faced them with humility with my head held high and respectfully. And I owe myself the biggest apology in the world for letting my life go the way that I did so, if you're out there and you're struggling because of what you think, people may say or how they may feel about you, getting clean and sober, I'm gonna tell you this. It's not their story that they are writand you don't allow someone to write your own story, you write it from beginning to end. It is up to you to save you and there are so many places that will help you includeing me. If this reaches you and you want to change and you want something different? Just give me a call, I'm always here. Thanks, guys, for listening
