I woke up today wanting to spend money on old habits. I’m not even going to look because I could find it and that is not the answer. I’m 19 months sober and I still have a hard time. I know it’s my mental and I’m so lonely. I’m having a hard time mentally I need help. I have a therapist she says I need a higher level of care. I think I do too. I think it’s hard to find help for mental health. It’ll get better they say but when? I keep trying, but for what? Mentally I’m having a hard time.
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I loved reading your story. You are truly an inspiration. Don’t give up!!!!! Sounds like you need a dual diagnosis treatment center to get help with your depression. I know I did! I’m almost at 1 year and I still struggle with depression and lonlieness, especially living in the northeast in the winter.
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Thank you for being real and honest, Jessica.
As Mary mentioned…do not give up!
It is tough to find relevant support for mental health.
Mental health issues affect my family…and it has been tough for us to find actual help for my older sibling, specifically.
The system or lack thereof in the United States is a complete joke!…
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…( continued )…
Congratulations on 19 months of sobriety, Jessica.
That is no small feat!
Also.
Congratulations on being as self-aware as you are!
I too, feel lonely.
You are not alone in your feelings of loneliness-for sure!
I wonder about these very questions which you bring, brought up-Jessica!
Gosh, y’all.
I guess we have to right-not give up…and figure these things out together?
Peace and love.
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Thank you, I’m an inspiration? Crazy, but again thank you I like that. I’m not giving up. One foot in front of the other, it’s just real hard right now and yes the weather is making it difficult I live in minnesnowta 
Yes it’s real hard, I thought it was hard to find sud treatment when I wanted to get sober but finding mental health support is even harder. I can’t give up myself won’t let me even when I want to. I will figure it out eventually. I always do I just wish I had support I guess. Thank you for helping me realize I won’t give up.
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Right we have to help each other, that makes sense. Nobody knows unless they know. It’s a good support group.
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Yes you are an inspiration!!!! You never know how sharing your story and your struggles may help someone else! My motto is “I stay sober out loud for those still suffering” you got this girl!
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Thank you makes me smile
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Jessica I sent you a friend request. Maybe I can help you find some help.
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🫶🏼 I accepted your request
…winters in the northeast can feel so brutal and tough.
I mean.
Duh?
Appreciate what you shared here, Mary.
I am no longer up north.
I spent close to a decade in MA.
Not for me!
This winter is still feeling tough…( while I am in my hometown, stressing over cleaning my family’s home )…so.
I will take this over a winter up North.
Stay warm-
And sober!
And yes…dual diagnosis may be needed?
( I will try to check in more )…we can each help to keep one another going, eh?
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I’m sorry you’re feeling so lonely that feeling is the worst of them all! I have read that a ketamine based therapy with a proper centre can do wonders for the mind allowing us to free ourselves of the burden! I am here if you ever need a new ear and some purely genuine conversation!!
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…relating, Jessica!
Yes.
I end up figuring stuff out, also…while right.
It is always nice to have support.
Sometimes I look at people I know with supportive partners, etc.-and I wonder if some even realize how fortunate they are?!
I try to not compare my life with another’s…stay in your own lane and so forth, right?
( One moment…I am unsure as to why I cannot see what I am typing screen-wise…after a certain number of lines )…
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It will get better when you work toward it harder a d ONLY then. When we remove something negative in live, positivity doesn't just come a d fill that void. WE MUST TAKE ACTION to fill that void with positivity. MH is the same. Fill your days with yoga, journaling, reading, meditation... fill your mental with things of higher ascension and your mental will be better off as a result. It really is this simple... although simple is not what I would call it.
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I’ve done that I drag myself to the gym about every other day, I journal about daily, 4 walks a day, started a new book, went to the dr a couple times in the last few weeks because I’ve been feeling sick, after blood test etc they said it’s my mental health so I started red light therapy they upd’ my medication. I’m trying I got on the waiting list to get back in DBT I’m trying. Breathing exercises, Google ideas. I’m not going to use but I’m starting to remember why I ever started. I don’t want to use though because it’s just going to give me more anxiety. I don’t have any support that’s why I’m on here telling all my business smh
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I really think it has sooo much to do with support.
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I read about ketamine last night but I’m betting it’s hard to get a prescription especially with my history my Dr doesn’t want to give me anything that could trigger me. Can u tell me anything else about it? Is it a new thing?
I was doing research and when traditional therapy this is taken in conjunction with a therapist during a session so it’s in a safe space and it’s supposed to open up the mind and allow ourselves that extra forgiveness
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I relate with this, Jessica.
Yes.
I do many things…to remain sober.
I was out walking today and for a while.
I too, have been remembering why I started.
Appreciate your honesty.
You are helping me ( and others ) am sure…to feel less alone.
I will be checking in to see how you are doing, Jessica!
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