I would’ve had two weeks clean today if not for

Recovery
#1

I would’ve had two weeks clean today if not for succumbing to relapse on my birthday yesterday. Disappointed in myself.

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#2

I’m really sorry. That feeling sucks.
But one bad day doesn’t erase the two weeks you put in. It just means you’re human. Shake it off, start again today. You’re not back at square one you’re starting with more awareness this time.

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#3

Thank you. I appreciate the encouraging words. It’s just all very disheartening— I’ve been pursuing sobriety since 2018 and the longest stint of continued abstinence I’ve had is only six months. I always inevitably relapse prior to garnering any real longevity in sobriety. After a while the constant back and forth starts to elicit a feeling of hopelessness, as if my best efforts to remain clean are futile.

#4

Quit setting yourself up. Hang in there with AA members. Work with a sponsor

#5

I am set to go to a meeting tonight with a friend. I’ve never had a sponsor, meetings have never been a place I’ve felt comfortable. But I am desperate.

#6

Be gentle with yourself, Jasmine. A relapse doesn’t erase the days you had.. it shows you where you still need support. Recovery isn’t a straight line. It’s learning, adjusting, and getting back up.

The fact that you’re here, owning it instead of hiding it, says a lot. That’s strength.

And remember… everyone’s recovery looks different. Meetings help some people, but they aren’t the only path. Sometimes it’s therapy. Sometimes it’s community in a different form. Sometimes it’s spiritual healing and reconnecting with yourself in a deeper way. You get to find what truly supports you.

Today can still be Day 1 of something stronger. Don’t let one moment convince you that you’ve lost your progress. You haven’t. :purple_heart: