Idk if I rushed into getting a full time job and also I forgot about my addiction problem how it always interferes with me keeping the Job because I binge drink and get so sick I don’t show up
What you rushed back into is the bottle. Don't deny it. Your an alcoholic. Now go do something about it. It ain't gonna fix itself.
There is help, you just have to ask. You being here is a start. There are AA meetings, there are meetings here. Read the book Alcohol Explained by William Porter. It explains in easy to understand terms what and how alcohol messes with your body and brain. Reach out anytime. You can do this.