I have learned from other sober friends it’s possible you could be undiagnosed ADHD/ADD, and using alcohol to self medicate
This relates to me as I would drink to calm my brain down from crowding thoughts and “focus better,” my therapist is evaluating me and its looking like I might have inattentive ADHD. People with this disorder are more likely to be addicts because of the chemical imbalances in the brain wanting more dopamine